i am a skinny guy, addicted to fapping since 2010. an year ago i joined gym and gained 12 kg, and almost quitted the masturbation. i was very elated. but my summer vacations ended and when i joined my college again, i faved problems related to food. so i could not continue my gym as i didn’t get breakfast. my college is in small town so i couldn’t manage my own breakfast. this tension, combined with the class stress, led me to do masturbation once more. i again fell in the trap. it didn’t took me long to figure out that I was fucking myself up, feeling tired all the time, not showing up in classes and accumulating low grades. i tried nofap many times, the longest streak being 20 days. it was going good but once i relapsed, i again fell.
I still remained strong and tried nofap, going a week almost every time. i told myself that in the next vacations i’ll go home and join gym again and then everything will be fine. but…
i couldn’t build myself up this time… i prayed to god but still i failed everytime.
i’ve no hope friends. i feel like killing myself… i don’t know what to do… please help me friends… i wanna live again:frowning: