This was my (I lost count)th relapse in 4 years.
I started PMO comparatively late than most of the other people. Did my first session at the age of 16. In last 4.5 years, I became increasingly addictive towards this filth. And I don’t know how much time it’ll take me to remove this addiction from my life but I know one thing I’m not gonna give in next time. It would be very naive of me to say that I’ll not relapse ever again but one thing is sure, I’m on this path now and untill I don’t eradicate this filth from my life, I won’t give up on NoFap.
You can conquer this addiction bro. Avoid all artificial stimulation; if you ask me the number 1 mistake people make is as their streak become bigger i.e. 60+, 90+ etc they’ll start looking at erotic images, pictures of girls etc.
This can kill you; surely these kinds of activities will take us to pmo.
Be celibate for the next 90-180 days. Don’t look at girls with lust; if possible don’t look at them
Focus on your passion. Exercise, meditate. Get your shit together. Addiction will go away. All the best bro
Well I certainly am not thinking about setting streak goals as my longest streak has been only 11 days. But I’m gonna focus on the present moment, Every moment I have to fight this monster. Not even thinking about benefits of NoFap, I just want one thing from this practice- Self-respect.
Btw Thanks for inspiring words man!!
Bro , sleep till 10 or 11 pm . As I have seen many people relapse after 12 , just surfing various social media sites and just one pic or video and relapse happens .
After 2 days and 14 hrs, I peeked accidently and relapsed.
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Relapse analysis:
Man! this was a tug of war. At least before starting I was so much conscious about this diary, what my a few readers will think of me, I’ll be the first to go down in “Master challenge” by @JonSnow001 . So this shows progress. And session was not so pleasurable, I didn’t have urge, I just did it for just sake of doing it. So not only overall but in all instances it was not so pleasurable. And after relapse it was just disgusting. DAY 0
Now what? Well, nothing. Numbness and Anger. But when did these things left me in last 4 years.
It’s not the motivation I need, I need action. And I’m ready to start the action again.
Relapsed again today after 2 days and 11 hrs streak.
This 2 day streak is becoming very tough. Maybe it’s the “chaser effect”. I binged today.
It’s very frustrating. As long as I will treat this thing as habit it won’t go away. It’s not a habit, it’s not an addiction, It’s not a big big monster. It’s just a spike coming at a time where your mind is free.
So now on I am gonna prepare complete schedule of next 7 days. Jampacked. Even entertainment and free time would be planned. I don’t need motivation, What I really need is Momentum. This sheer momentum will take me to next level.
I’m not writing my diary on daily basis and that’s a mistake because why the F**k I created it, To write, Right? Then effing write man.
Schedule for today. 1800 to 0300
1800-1900 : Dinner - Evening Walk
1900-0300 : Pomodori of Modern History.
Schedule for 16th Jan
1000-1130 : Wakeup , Freshen up, Quick 40 pushups and 15 pull ups to set the tone of day.
1130-1230 : Cold shower, Meditation(10 min), Lunch + IndvsAus
1230-1300 : Afternoon walk
1300-1430 : Newapaper and other Current
1430-1500 : Nap and then Tea
1500-1600 : Movie
1600-1700: Workout
1700-1900: Flute+ Spanish+ Book+ Dinner
1900-0300: Modern History Pomodori
Yesterday wasn’t as full of productivity as I thought it would be, but still, I didn’t think of PMO the whole day. No urges until now but I am aware of chaser effect. And next 2 days are important because I couldn’t convert 2-day streaks into 3 days. So that’s an issue I gotta resolve and right now I’m in that moment. From now on, the tricky phase starts. So gotta be aware of my thoughts.
Apart from this, Today’s schedule got messed up. Woke up late and watched Washi and Shardul frustrating Australian bowlers. So worth watching that. And now for remaining hours of the day-
Finally, the 3rd-day barrier is broken. It was a much-needed breakthrough. I was relapsing after 2-day streaks for some time now. So the first win comes. And I’m getting urges now definitely pure urges. No surprise these will come. Either it’s day 3 or 300. These are inevitable. What I have to do is to learn to dodge them and fight them. Be on the safe side, don’t go towards the edge, Don’t peek, Don’t fantasize. Because if you do these – You’ll be shot point-blank. So just dodge these urges or Fight them, Accept them and take your awareness somewhere else.
In other news, India breached the fortress Gabba and I’m ecstatic.
Now Schedule for today and tomorrow
1530-1630 : Data Protection Bill Note
1630-1930 : Uncertain, Guests are coming
1930-0200 : Forest Policy and other Tribal Problems.
Next day(Timings may be uncertain so just task list)
I don’t watch cricket, but I’ll support India no matter what sport they play
@GOVIND-19 Curry Everyone was sleeping on my man
I can wear my dub city shirt again cause we won-otherwise all the Lakers fans in college will just look at me jokingly-but Warriors are no joke.
Let’s not disrupt the flow of this great diary. Apologies @Iron_shadow
I don’t know how to tell you about this specific series because it was by far the most dramatic cricket series involving India ever. Just to put things in perspective, It was like Endgame after Infinity war defeat. Now don’t you say that you don’t watch marvel movies too.
I’ve seen those, but yeah xD I’m not into Marvel/DC. Just enough to know what everyone is talking about.
Since I’m aspiring to become a writer, I’m more into fantasy and novels like LoTR, PJO and anything fantasy/dragon related. Rn I’m reading The Chronicles of William Wilde and it’s a decent series (free on Kindle unlimited-do check it)
Lol Game of thrones is the online/TV series. The actual novel series is called A song of Ice and fire and only the first novel is called A game of thrones.
(Yeah, no, I’m not watching game if thrones for the precise reason that it has so much XXX content)
What made my day today was this-
