It’s so sad to realise the defeats I incurred along the years, and how it changed me to weaker, negative person. lots of hopes and beliefs lost, despair conquered.
My cousin told me today, " whenever you need me, call me and I’ll be there" , I said something to turn his offer down, I said something like ‘no one have a time for others’ ,.
Just to realise, how many defeats I incurred , and how many times I dropped my ego and asked for help, friend , family… But I never represented as priority to anyone. I come last, no one would bother. That this is now my new normal, integrated in my reality. That I can ask for help, but no one there to answer the call.
Everyone busy, and what they’re doing is so important, it can’t wait, running, chasing nothingness.