I think I'm healing, but

Well a long streak has made me anxious. but I can turn the thoughts off. In bits and pieces I think I can think clearly too. The most important thing is where I can study more effectively than before. And it looks like I’m perpetually frustrated. I can see the path to my goal sometimes but other times I’m blank again.
I’m still weak and still vulnerable. I should be happy with progress but it is not enough. My mind is not calm. I wonder when will this phase end and what to do here. This is a weird phase. Any suggestions on how to cope with it people?

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I wish you the best guys… Leaving this forum permanently… Good luck on your journey

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you don’t understand bro. It’s so hard to trust myself after repeated failures. And now that I’m not failing upto the mark it’s scary. but what can I do?
I can’t sit like this. I have to strive for something better.

And whats that brother? Any ideas?

what are you asking? Please be specific
I didn’t get it

I mean you said that you want to strive for something… Do you have something in mind?

yes I do. I have to achieve it. But I’m unable to trust myself so far

Achievement in your way means… Which is being free of addiction, right?

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that’s just a part of it I guess. But I can’t just stop there. I can’t keep myself in the comfort zone like this. I have to grow and become a superior version of myself.
I have to do some things in my life. I have to create a difference around. And looks like it’s an effort of lifetime. But to do that, I have to start my engine.

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I wish you the best guys… Leaving this forum permanently… Good luck on your journey

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I wish you the best guys… Leaving this forum permanently… Good luck on your journey

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Thanks and I’m not looking for an end date either.
I’m not missing out porn and fapping in my life.
I told you that I have to create a difference
Become stronger, smarter than before
And do things that make a superior human being
It’s less about quitting an addiction and more about facing problems in my life now. And I don’t just want to face them, I want to destroy them. I want to destroy everything that stands in my way.

I’m 23 years old and at a critical phase of my life. And that’s why I’m so desperate

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Good for you… Your post felt like you are inviting a lot of pressure on yourself… I am only telling that, you will reach there but be free of pressure…
Quit today, make sure you dont give up your choices today… Do it the next day… Next day… Thats it… Keep going…

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when the pressure reaches the peak point it does not overwhelm u anymore. It does not scare. It does nothing. When the pressure reaches the peak point you are pumped up and nothing can stop u

I’ve been running away all this time. And I’m tired of running away now. I want to have a full control over me and I want to be fighting no matter whatever the odds are. Unless I don’t break out of that sphere of insecurities and start to face my fear no way I will be what I want to be.

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Yeah sounds good brother… :+1::+1:

I wish you the best guys… Leaving this forum permanently… Good luck on your journey

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I told all that because I’ve been there once. I have felt it in my heart. And I’m tired of being sick like this. I just want it back no matter what. Can’t live my life like a pleasure seeking zombie

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yeah it is for the fire. Got to get my engine running somehow

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