It takes a lot of courage to say this on a forum where everyone is against relapsing. Bravo brother.
But it is how our brain plays with us. I personally have those days where I make myself believe that fapping is the answer to all my stress and anxiety and after the relapse I do feel a bit more light headed and at peace. But can you see the pattern here? I didn’t address the fact that I was stressed at first place, the reason for my anxiety is still prevalent. That fake sense of clear headedness is not going to let me think about the solutions for my problems, I have just taken my mind away from all the problems.
Adding to that, prioritizing what’s important is the key, is the fighting taking a toll on your work? Is it not letting you focus? If relapsing is helping you to focus again then I would reckon a relapse. But it is not helpful in long term, I have experienced this phase myself, it just makes us lazy and demotivated in an extended period of time.