Although I am not new here, I haven’t posted in this forum until now.The reason being my addiction is literally out of my control lately.I am so much ashamed to see what I have become. A pathetic excuse of a man.
I am 23 years now. Was exposed to porn at young age by some distant relatives.Curiosity got the best of me and I began to dwelve deeper in this habit.Started faping at 13/14 years old continuing till present.
Before pmo I was a very good student.I was disciplined and had good behaviors. When I started pmo I began to grow cold,my behaviors, attitude started changing. I started to change in lots of ways that people started questioning if I was okay.
At present I feel so much wasted. I feel powerless to defeat my addiction. Every time I get some streak I relapse badly again and again.Only in my 20’s I am realizing how much pmo has screwed me.Today I feel like a zombie.I don’t have any confidence, am suffering from depression anxiety and it is just worse because I have introverted personality. I wasted my teen years pmoing and the results of that I am facing now. I don’t know how to describe my situation right now ,I just can’t put it to words. I just want help whether it be advice or suggestion because I am tired of struggling alone, I am tired of failing, living like a zombie. Please help me…
P.S English is not my native language and I don’t how to express myself so please excuse my English.