I have been failing

I’ve been away for a long time and I am needing to come back now… I still haven’t watched porn thank God but I’ve still been whacking off to my fiancee for a long time… Our problem was not going onto hard mode. Now I got memories of getting BJs and having sex with her while visiting her in her country. Now that I’m back all I wanna do is whack off to the memories. I need to start checking in here more often… I need to stop whacking off.