Two days ago I posted this on the message board:
I stopped drinking alcohol 5 years ago, drugs 7 years ago and cigarettes 18 years ago, but damn, Porn is the hardest addiction I ever tried to stop.
There were times I could go months without relapsing, and now I seem to relapse every two weeks.
It’s fascinating how the mind tricks me every time. But after years trying to stop I quit feeling bad about it and started to be compassionate with myself, because this is a hell of a challenge!
Let this be the last relapse.
I am Thomas and I used to be an Porn addict.
I’m super determined to make it work this time, hence this diary as a support for myself. Forever is my goal.
The systems I’m changing this time:
- No pc after 7pm and minimize usage during the day
- Phone in airplane mode after 7pm and out of the bedroom
- Created a 365 days calendar and I cross the coming day off in the morning BEFORE IT HAPPENED. I place my hand to my chest and state “I can overcome this addiction because I love and respect myself”. At that moment I already decided not to fap that day.
- More active on Rewire companion forum.
See you later, we can do this!
Edit: Here’s my sharing code in case you want to add me: g9nl6f