I am Thomas and I'm an Porn addict [35 M - Day 13]

Two days ago I posted this on the message board:

I stopped drinking alcohol 5 years ago, drugs 7 years ago and cigarettes 18 years ago, but damn, Porn is the hardest addiction I ever tried to stop.
There were times I could go months without relapsing, and now I seem to relapse every two weeks.
It’s fascinating how the mind tricks me every time. But after years trying to stop I quit feeling bad about it and started to be compassionate with myself, because this is a hell of a challenge!
Let this be the last relapse.
I am Thomas and I used to be an Porn addict.

I’m super determined to make it work this time, hence this diary as a support for myself. Forever is my goal.

The systems I’m changing this time:

  • No pc after 7pm and minimize usage during the day
  • Phone in airplane mode after 7pm and out of the bedroom
  • Created a 365 days calendar and I cross the coming day off in the morning BEFORE IT HAPPENED. I place my hand to my chest and state “I can overcome this addiction because I love and respect myself”. At that moment I already decided not to fap that day.
  • More active on Rewire companion forum.

See you later, we can do this!

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All the best Thomas… You can do it. :muscle::v:

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Love the way you face this addiction. Will learn from you too

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DAY 7 - Eazy Peazy

The first week is usually not an problem for me, it’s around 14 days that is the first challenge.

However, I took the challenge to rewire my brain from day 1, using other urges as a template.
Some examples;

  • when I start a pack of oreo’s I would easily eat half the pack, now I restrict myself and can only eat two.
  • When eating breakfast, no cellphone / books / any distraction, just me and the food.
  • I put my phone on airplane mode when I go to sleep (and keep it out of the bedroom) and can only turn airplane mode off once I finished breakfast and morning exercises.

Basically training the mind to ask first if it’s okay to indulge in some urge (and usually it’s an NO).

Let’s see what this gives in the next seven days.

Keep it going fellow people. Love and respect yourself!

By reading your post i see you are true to yourself and i would like to see you porn free :slight_smile:
Count me if you would like to connect.

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Just an update of inspiration, the following man has been doing nofap for the last 9 years: Sarvesh Shashi, and he is rocking life!
This postcast was a joy to listen to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0NTMSFBmv0

Other than that, energy is back to normal levels, what a difference with day 0 - 7.

Anyhow, watch the postcast!

Day 13 - Been awarded the new user badge of the month November 2020 :two_hearts:

Other than that, my mind is beginning to poop up small tests, libido seems higher and dreams are also getting more sexual.
The past 3-4 times I relapsed around day 14, so I need to be extra vigilant these days.

I firmly believe I can easily traverse these days just by sticking to these rules:

  • No digital devices after 7pm
  • Morning statement and intention to do nofap that day
  • Don’t push away ‘unwanted’ emotions, thoughts,… Just let them be and don’t fall into the content.
  • Daily walks, meditation and yoga

This is a journey we can only do by ourselves, but we can support each other in that. Keep going strong people! :yellow_heart: :orange_heart: :heart: