Have you tried something else than working out?
You have to find something that helps you achieving your goal.
Use your writing. Spend more time on doing that for example.
Or look for something else. But to find something that you could enjoy you need to know what you like and what you wanna achieve. Otherwise you will try random stuff and then it is obvious that it doesn’t make you happy. I wouldn’t be happy by going to the gym either
Try to go for a run of 40 minutes to one hour.
It need to be intense enough to naturaly involve deep breathing with your mouth.
It’s an Excellent way to reboot your mind or be more connected to your body.
While running try to feel your muscle and every sensation. They still may be thoughts it’s ok.
For me it works 10 times better than working out at the gym.
Do this at least twice a week, it will will make you feel better.
i think it won’t make any difference. it’s just another sport.especially one that doesn’t make fun if you have never trained it. i think it’s not as simple as just feel happy. for someone outside who never had really deep problems like these it sounds easy. don’t be so pessimistic or just be happy.
but if your life is such a mess you really have to change more than just that
I’m going to the gym to get shredded. I want to try and build myself and get a six-pack and to be better looking and to be healthy. Granted I sometimes don’t want to exercise. Actually sometimes I hate to exercise, but I still do it because I’m trying to improve my body. I’m making up for the time I stayed indoors gaming, eating and getting fat. And, man, let me tell you… you think I hate myself now, you should’ve seen how much i mate myself then when I was over weight.
Ad for my writing… My writing is pathetic. I’m a terrible excuse for a writer. Besides, even when I want to write, I quickly lose motivation. Everyone in the past sad my writing was bad. As for anything else, I’d like to do acting, but in all honesty, when is a chump like me going to have all the time in the world, when he has to pay rent, pass out towels, serve customers, work in an office and serve the country, and somehow find time to go down to LA or to some movie studio and audition. There’s is never any time because I have so many responsibilities. As for other things, I don’t know what else to do for creativity. That’s why I wanted to write, because I could build other worlds and make adventures the easiest way. My drawing and animation is sh*t so I can’t draw or animate, and I sure as hell don’t have the money to make a movie, so I have to revert to the basics, which is writing. And even then, I fail at that. So yeah, really… I fail at everything. I’m failure manifested.
I used to do that too, believe it or not. In fact there’s one point (if you read one of my other replies to @neveragaintw) that I was do over weight that I really, really, REALLY hated myself. In fact, I hated myself so much that I made running as a punishing and torture exercise. So one day, I went to the beach and ran for 8 miles straight on the first date. I didn’t warm uo, I didn’t do a pep-talk. I just became my own tormentors and punished my body. I didn’t care if I had shin splints or if my ankles were really hurting. Stopping was not acceptable, I just ran for eight miles and didn’t stop till I made it to the end. And as you can imagine, I was in a lot pain and hated it. But as I continued doing the same thing over and over again, my body got used to it. However, I still regarded myself as fat. If I didn’t have my Six-Pack, or if had any form of fat around my belly, I still considered myself a fat piece of sht. And because of that, I’d go running. Even to this fay, I still consider myself a fat piece of sht and still exercise. Breathing has nothing to do with me getting better. I don’t like running and I don’t like exercise. But whether I like it or not is irrelevant. The reality is that i need to go out and exercise otherwise I’ll revert to being a fat slob again. And yes, i may have breathed hard on all thay, but mark my words when i say this: it never brought me rest, relief, or catharsis. I’ve always hated it.
Well, I wouldn’t know how to do that, my friend. I am a mess myself. I wouldn’t know how to think optimisticly.
I think you a have a lot of potential it’s just your mind that makes you suffer
You have two challenge:
- Improve your Life slowly (new activities, hobbies, trying new thing…)
- Self developement: read one book I recommend to you because it had an big Impact on my Life and many other I know
The presence process by Micheal brown.
Read the reviews on amazon.
Challenge NOT accepted. Not because I don’t want to. But because I can’t.
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I can’t improve by picking up hobbies. I already have three jobs and a lot of responsibilities. Are you proposing that I quit two of them and just do two hobbies in which I won’t get comodity for? Do you propose I just starve (don’t answer that; rhetorical question, I know your answer)? You get my point, I just don’t have time actually do things. In fact because of my work, I had to give up going to the writers guild to improve my writing. That’s how bad it is. I ga e up a lot for 3 jobs.
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secondly, I was reading a book, but had to stop because I’m a slow reader and reading takes time. I was reading The Eye of The World by Robert Jordan and then The Art of War by Sun Tzu. And guess what happened? Work got in the way. I have no time to sit down and absorb information because I’m so busy and so unmotivated to read because of my work.
To conclude, that’s why I cannot accept your challenge.
Ok look’s like you are already doing the work.
I think you don’t need any of our advice.
I wish you the best.
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What are on earth are you talking about? What Work? There’s no work in any of this, I’m just doing my daily routines! There is no progression in any of this.
You don’t have time to read or get a hobby but you have time to watch porn?
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Who said I’m watching porn? And why are you following me? Also, you clearly misread and are misrepresenting what I wrote.
Why should writing be more pathetic than working out? who cares about your abs? You’re the only one. It’s a good thing if you like your self better with abs then without but no one else cares. Who cares if your writing is good or bad? Keep going with writing as long as you hate yourself less when you are writing than if you just say that you are too stupid to write a good story.
As you said you can write about everything. You can imagine everything and maybe find something you could wish yourself for your own life.
To the making a movie thing. There are great movies out there shot with a smart phone. There are cutting programs which are free. So, the money definitely isn’t an excuse.
You’re bad at drawing? Learn it so that it is less pathetic. Write a story and draw pictures to this story to make your story less pathetic. There are tons of tutorial on YouTube. Everyone can learn to be at least a decent painter.
Force yourself to be less pathetic than you are!
Who said that writing is more pathetic than working out? I said that MY writing is pathetic. And the reason why I care about my and is because I’m fat and pathetic. And I don’t care that no one cares. And yes, I care that my writing is vad. And no, I can’t keep going because it just gets worse. And if you don’t think so, you obviously have never read any of my works. And no I’m not going to share it because of how cringeworthy the writing is. That’s how bad it is. And yes, I still hate myself when I’m writing because I can never write a good story. All I can do is write stupid ones.
And no, I can’t make a movie thing and I can’t even atleast publish one short story. That’s how pathetic I am. All I get are rejections. That means that my writing is bad. And no, I don’t make movies with smartphones. Only top notch stuff. And yes, editing does cost something. Don’t tell me it doesnt. In fact, it costs to have a crew to do it. And I know no one who can help me with that.
Learn to 've less pathetic at drawing? HA! I have a friend whose an artist told me my kind of drawings would never be accepted into his art school, because it’s based on muscle memory, which I do not have. So yeah, can’t improve on that. And besides, most of my drawings are just as cringeworthy ad my writing. By the way, you can always feel free to point and laugh at my patheticness. And no, YouTube doesn’t cut it. I find it fascinating that you seem to be writing as if I haven’t tried using these resources before. Do you really believe that? If i did, I wouldnt be here, would i? And yes, I’ve done it multiple times only to fail again and again and again. Once again, cursed to fail.
Feel free to point and laugh at me. Make me feel worse. And I cannot force myself to be less pathetic. I was, is, and always will be pathetic. I’m cursed to be that way no matter what.
No one is responsable for making you feel worse.
You are just completely addicted to complaining and feeling bad.
Do you think any one in this life did accomplish anything by complaining ? No
You want a girlfriend, do you think they like people that complain? No
Complaining is not compatible with success and happinness, you have to make a choice.
For me you just want attention on this forum to feed your negative emotion, get out of this vicious cercle!
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Well I guess I’m doomed then. There’s nothing that can save me. If complaining is all I have left to do, then so be it. I am pathetic after all. Whether I get attention or not, I’m irredeemable. I cannot change. Nor will I even if I try. I’m doomed to remain this way forever. Call it addiction or curse or whatever. I’m always going to feel like a loser.
Day 31 HOLY F*CK AND IM DRUNK!!!
Day 31!!! No f*cking way!!! Hurray!!! I made it to nearly a whole ***damn month and I’m drunk.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahajabhahahhahahahaghqhahahahahhah!!!
Oh, that’s right. I have no girlfriend. I guess that makes me a loser, a close being a virgin (even though I’m really not 
) but still a loser close-to-being-a-virgin-again. Btw, I’m not bashing on virgins because if you really are a virgin, God bless you, because you are the disciplined man, I can never be. I’m just a horny, mother*****er that just wants to feel intimacy with a woman again. And again, is that too much to ask? Seriously, I want to feel that intimacy, that passion, that love. But alas, here I lay alone, with nought but a beautiful maid to bed and woo her in these darkest moments of our lives, as will still retain these coils of our roles in life. Woe is me.
As if…
Honestly, I’m feeling ok, because of the alcohol. I just finished playing kings cup with some friends in the military, and some girls were here. But of course, I couldn’t woo one.
What’s that? Do you hear that sound!? Hark! That’s the cue for you to laugh at me!
BTW, if it hadn’t occurred to you, I’m drunk.
And I know there are some of my Christian compatriots who ate probably reading this who are triggered to what I’m saying, to which I retort as, “I’m sorry, but I don’t give a sh*t.” God made me as a flawed man of all flawed man. And if it means drinking to feel better without me beating my meat, so be it.
But let’s face. Inside, I still feel lonely. Infact, probably after this post, I’ll probably cry myself to sleep again. I just want to jusy feel a warm feminine body next to me. Is that just too much to ask!? I respect women! I love them! They just don’t respect me! In fwct, they fcking miss the best things of their lives when they reject me!!! But why can’t they see that!!! I want them to know that I’m not like any other guy! I am myself! I am a legend! An alpha male in progress. Sure, I may be a miserable pie e of sht, but god******** I’m a fcking work in progress!!! I am the male of all males!!! I’m the meta-male! All women who miss the opportunity to be with me will the the the day they reject me! NOT because I hate them, but because they reject me in the first place. And one day, one fcking day, every one will know me. They will all look up to me and say, “Date me.” And I’ll be with the other hot chicks next me, looking down upon them and say, “No!”
Yrs, call me egotistical, call me arogant, call me selfish, but let’s face it. Would you rather hear me as I am know than what I am sober? I’m a miserable piece of sh*t, and no one loves me.
It makes me wondee, what am I going to think when I wake up and read this post. What will people say?
Don’t know, don’t f*cking care. I’ll always have haters no matter what.
But let’s be sentimentle for a moment, please.
I may be happy,
And I may be boastful…
But let’s be honest; You and me.
We both know that deep down, I am a HollowMan. That I am still pathetic, that I’m still a work in progress. Even thouvh I may want to learn to connect eith women, Dee down inside, there’s a goal I want to aaco.plish. But I wonder, can I do it? Can I really make my dreams into reality? I don’t know and I’m not sure.
And because of that, I go to bed as a sad man, not having that goal accomplished. I go to bed as a failure, Hopi g that I become a winner tomorrow but I doubt that. All I want is just to have master writing and mast acting, and master creativity ANF master seduction skills. Why is it that I’m such a hollow man? Why can’t I just be a full man? What van I do to make myself the actual alpha male.
I conclude this post I tears and pray to God that someday, someday, he blesses me with the ability to seduce women and to be the better man than I am right now. Although highly doubtful, I still strive for this i.possibke goal.
God bless you all and good nivht.
Ps, if you you d this entry cry geworthy, feel free to point and laugh.
- love,
HOLLOWMAN91
PS, if you have any female friends in Cali or if you have any hints on how I should approach women and talk to them, because let’s face it, I’m sh*t at talking to them, let me know. Thank you and good night.
I’m going to cry myself to sleep now.
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You are really great at expressing things. You know very clearly what your dislikes are. We guys are confused what is good for us and what is bad…atleast you know this…you know what …mind ( we call it “mn” in hindi ) are like pet dogs …if you go out with it on a walk, it will sniff the road here and there, it will look for useless things out of the way irrespective of where you are going but as soon as it notices you are going away suddenly it runs and catches you and again repeat the same …So by the end, though it never follows your tread mark, but it reaches back to home with you … so dont expect your wishes to follow your will , it will defy your order …but start doing things without wish…it will start catch you in 4-5 days …again it will wander here and there… and catch you again…a time will come when you don’t care where it is going but still it follows you.
Lol great post. Seems like you had fun, good for you.
Btw, just because God hasn’t ‘blessed’ you with seduction doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you. In fact that’d keep you further from sin if you could learn to control yourself of sexual urges. You were meant to learn something out of this problem. Question is, what? That’s for you to find out. Just as the apostle Paul had problems with boastfulness and sexual urges. He writes it is a thorn given to him to buffet him and make him a better man. I will leave the verses for you. God bless.
2 Corinthians 12:6-9
6 For though I would desire to glory, I shall not be a fool; for I will say the truth: but now I forbear, lest any man should think of me above that which he seeth me to be, or that he heareth of me.
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Please, I was just drunk last night and wanted to “celebrate” that I quit pornfapping for nearly over a month. And I hope I can get my dreams done.
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