As you can guess from the title, I messed up. I relapsed. I feel really bad about it, @J0KER I wasn’t even able to keep up for more than a day!
But instead of sulking about it… I’m picking myself up and trying again. This thing is hard and I don’t think anybody who never had to deal with it, will be able to relate.
What you see in media can play a subconscious role in causing you to experience worser urges. I definitely need to watch what I watch… limit my exposure to media… and somehow find a way to dodge most of the erotic images floating about… at least for the first 90 days.
To everyone reading this: I know how it feels!
Anything can be a trigger. Not even just sexually suggestive images, but just feeling tired.
Another cause for my relapse was, emotional pain. I was thinking so much about one of my friends and… now I eventually contacted them and everything seems to be better now… but I still needed a escape from the pain.
But I’m not gonna give up! 90 days and above and beyond is my goal! Anyone who wishes to join me can do so. One day our pain will be over and we will lead better lives and be self-fulfilled!