She was sent by God. What an inspirational meeting.
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@Sacred Absolutely my friend! It really brought clear perspective and a sense of urgency to the journey.
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Wooowwwā¦
Thatās so cool
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Very cool my man! It was a quite an experience!
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Thank GOD for another day!
Monday. Another week! My exercises were completed in good time today, no dragging them out till 11pm. Iāve gotten some tasks done towards my goals.
My friend messaged me yesterday to say he unintentionally came across P on Twitter, and ended up staying for about 60-90 seconds before closing the page. That was enough for him to feel broken and weak, even though he regained his senses and his hands didnāt go down there. P is so extremely damaging; immoral, rotting our self-esteem and destroying joy in our lives. We have to remember this every day and call it to mind when we are tempted. Thereās nothing for us back there!
Always thank GOD for everything!
Day 39.
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Hello urges, my old friend. Itās been a while.
The urges came back to me again today. They can tell my streak is getting higher and higher with GODās Help. They can feel the loss of control. The repair of my self-esteem, the return of joy and the fire of life. They want me to remain in darkness with them.
Scene after scene of my ex-favorite P videos rushing through my head. Curiosity on what new P video so-and-so has released recently.
I will be clean. I will continue on this path. I will die before I break my streak, so help me GOD.
Four urge attacks came for me today and I defeated them in the same way, saying this from my Power over Pornography course:
I seek refuge in GOD from Satan the accursed. In the Name of GOD, the Most Gracious Spirit, the Most Merciful.
- I want to view and do, and thatās okay. (View and do is a euphemism for view pornography and masturbate.)
- Temptations come to everyone. I do not need to feel ashamed or guilty for this. It is my actions which count and make one good or evil.
- I am always free to choose. My choice is for this time only. I am free to choose differently the next time.
- When I choose, I choose my vision and positive consequences, not just action.
- I choose to live a loving life (a loving life is a positive way of saying PMO-free) where, with reverence and honor, I joyously glorify GOD as I advance daily and achieve my goals in health, wealth, love and happiness. I feel deep love for GOD, myself and those around me, and I boldly express this love with enthusiasm, laughter, vitality and presence with my family and friends. With peace of mind and clarity, I become the man Iāve always wanted to be, by GODās Grace.
The urges died before I even finished saying these sentences, each time. The power of a positive vision has greater pull than the dark, false invitations of PMO.
No relapse is ever worth it. Forget curiosity. Forget those old videos. Forget the arousal.
Day 40 by the Grace of the Most High. I continue to fight another day.
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Thank GOD for another day!
I was reflecting on the problems Iām experiencing right now compared to May two months ago.
Problems like getting tasks accomplished daily towards my goals, waking up in good time ( thanks to @anon67854825, Iāve realized that sleeping in does me no favours), completing my exercises, eating healthily and spending quality time with family and friends.
In May, I was depressed, hiding away from the world, drowning in debt with -Ā£998 in my bank account, I was sneaking to the store at night to eat cakes and icecream as a reward/pick-me-up after constant relapses, and my goals were nowhere in sight.
Iāll take these so-called problems any day!
Iāve seen a number of my companions relapse recently; it saddened me quite a bit. One had over 295 days on his counter! 
I pray we can all leave this behind so we live the free and fulfilling lives we deserve.
Always thank GOD for everything.
Day 40.
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If you have any problemā¦ you know i am there for youā¦ Feel Free to call.
Sometimes we need a companionā¦ to let our frustration outā¦ speaking to fellow companion ā¦ on same journeyā¦ ease soul and comforts mind.
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We wonāt let you down. Itās a promise. I am also going through a flatline. I am not able to do exercises. We will win! Keep going strong friend.
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Force yourself to excercise.
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Okay, I will exercise 
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Yes I agree exercise is really good. Force yourself for at most and hour of exercise, anything over starts draining you and causes stress to increase.
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@HappySoul Regular exercise really does wonders for you bro. Iāve been through 2 flatlines so far and the exercise really helped me break through it. Also, it curbs urges and provides a positive source of dopamine, so that really helps on this journey.
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Thank GOD for another day!
I can see that urges have come back after a long time. I havenāt really had any for about a month. But theyāre far reduced in intensity and frequency. The loud roar pushing me back to PMO in the past has become the annoying buzz of a fly.
The journey gets easier with time. GOD willing, Iāll keep moving forward. No overconfidence; every urge must be defeated and not allowed to linger.
Always thank GOD for everything.
Day 41.
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Thank GOD for another day!
Today was stressful. Sweltering heat at 36Ā°C - Londonās weather is trying to compete with Dubai on that front it seems. I woke up in good time, got prepared to do my daily tasks and fell straight back asleep again. I ended up being late to work. Thank GOD I at least completed my exercises though. More urges again today, more urges defeated. Praise Him!
Itās amazing how you can read a text a few times before finally absorbing the lesson fully. Hereās what I picked up from Power over Pornography:
Blaming stress, anger, boredom, depression, strong urges and more for PMO is giving your power away. We lose our power when we blame someone or something else for our own choices.
None of the reasons for PMO in the past were valid reasons. We had trained our brains to PMO as a result of experiencing negative emotions and feelings in the past, and since then it has been an almost involuntary response whenever we experience them again.
But we are completely responsible for our own behavior. And it is absolutely impossible to avoid negative emotions; they are part of living as a human being. Avoiding problems means they arenāt dealt with, so they come back again and stronger the next time. Problems are solved by confrontation, not avoidance.
Always thank GOD for everything.
Day 42.
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This post is awesome.
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this is GOLD
Truth always leads to liberation!
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@Sahas @BoomerangNebula Thank you my friends! Iāll be sure to share more posts like this in the future!
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