Relapsing is such a huge mental drain, so I figured posting anything will cement my resolve. I want to enjoy life again, and not feel like my happiness is tied to a number that keeps getting reset in a hellish cycle of shame. I want to lose track of the days clean.
If joining a community will help my journey and lead to a more fulfilling life then I have no reason not to be active here.
Good luck everyone, we are good enough and a number doesn’t define who we are - it’s the desire to change and help ourselves that matters. Maybe I’m just typing this to tell myself what I need to hear.