Youâll be fine bro. Its pretty easy for people to advice others that you should not get angry, you should not abuse etc⌠, but people donât understand that one doesnât want to get angry on others either. Its just that sometimes we have no control over how we feel. But you can control the abusive language bro, you can do that atleast by trying hard to keep control on what comes out of your mouth. Things will get better bro. I believe in you. You will win this fight against your own negativities , and will be able to win this struggle for life.
Take care bro.
Happy new year 2021 to you, your daughter, your spouse and your entire beautiful family. I hope you have a wonderful year ahead.
Sex last night as spouse was hungry for it.
Got stressed because 2nd time it was i who did to her. I didnt not orgasm. She had 2.
After that for 1 hour i meditated over it and got over the issue around 11 pm, 31 december 2020 to march forward with honour in 2021.
Today,Walking upto cow farm in morning.
3 rounds hiit
An explosive beginning to new year with 12 days streak, daily excercise habit &; a lot of positivity.
Drove my car today, i want to go outside now & live my life fully.
What a positive start to your year bro. Enjoy your life to the fullest and work hard. I know you will continue to get better every passing day. You are a hero.
Yesterday.
10 rounds walking in evening around house.
56 kg weight ( 2 kg gained in last 15 days ) closing to normal mark.
Frustration at night, no control over tongue, abused spouse, lecturing her when she is happy in her world. Why i am so into, i must concentrate on myself alone &; let go of even my spouse. Their progress is in their hands. I must walk forward alone. I must change myself first.
Today.
Flatline.
Walking upto cow farm in morning.
Getting good energy from little child.
35+21+20+15+15= 106 (pushups)
5 minutes meditation at afternoon.
Listened to geeta darshan.
14 rounds walking in evening.
Letting her live her life, i am focusing on my own.
Felt great after walking. We must do our best in flatlines. From my past i have learned that flatline is where we have to give our best.
Bro, its ok. Like I told you last time that probably you canât control your anger, but you can control the words coming out of your mouth.Words can be those fatal arrows which canât be taken back, so think before you speak bro.
And she is your wife. She loves you and you love her too, so its your duty to help her in becoming better bro. But do that with love, she didnât do anything to receive your abuses or hurtful words. You can express your anger, you can lecture her on becoming better , but do that after choosing wise words bro.Same thing can be said in several ways.
Went outside. Got my bike repaired & brought vegetables for the family from the market. Dar ke aage jeet hain.
8+4+5+4+4+4+6+4= 35 ( Arms workout )
Spouse was angry, i didnt reacted, stayed balanced.
Relatives visited house, this time i faced them and i progressed in social anxiety issue.& Very busy day for the legs. For some hours, no time for rest. It was a good experience overall.
Great going bro. You are able to do things in the right way with a little bit self control. That is what you are capable of in a few days bro. Think what more can you do if you have more self control. The world will be yours bro.
What I like the most is that you are learning to control your anger. Thats the most important thing bro. And congratulations on gaining another victory over social anxiety.
Walking upto brick factory, there was an exitement in the air, today, confidence is improving.
3 hiit, a brust of power during workout, whole body filled with red blood, heart pumping,
headache after workout. This headache i felt after 3 years, once i had when i sprinted with my all where i had gave every inch of my power, this experience is enlightening, making me more powerful.
2 rounds walking in evening.
6 rounds more in post evening with daughter.
Spouse anger is significantly reduced, she was cheerful, today. Signs of improvement in her, too.
Woke up in the middle of the night with blue balls. Splashed cold water & did mool bandh, pain got dissolved.
Drizzle today, holiday from work.
Brought vegetables from market.
Made pasta.
Grated carrots to help spouse in kitchen,
Social anxiety significantly reduced.
Good to see you succeeding!
About social anxiety, working out is good for that, keep going. Have you read âno more mr nice guyâ? It helps to build self confidence.
Thereâs also audiobook of this. I recommend you.
In my case this book was breakthrough. I was extremely shy, anxious, simp. It shows that it all started in our childhood. We didnât have good enough authority in how to be man. I find the most useful in fighting anxiety and building relationships. It has many exercises to do in your daily life that are changing mindset and making you know what you want and taking it.
Deep conversation on the journey with spouse before sleeping at night. I was getting tired from the journey but she motivated me & i was also finding way to go even higher & higher. Slept good night sleep aftermath of the 18 days hard work that now we need to work even harder & stronger. We need to go further & further.
A brutal quarrel with the spouse. Almost beaten her with the sticks if my mom hadnt come in between. I told her not to switch on the fan because i was going to take a bath but she continously was switching on the fan as she was mopping the floor. This made me angry because i expect her to respect me and cooperate with me. I dont know her side, what she thinks, maybe she got her side of the story.
I think i must have shown bigger heart if she was adamant about the situation. This fight was the fight of two egos, like who owns the house. I think we both were stupid.
I should take wise decisions, not for others but for me, so that i can move forward in this life and leave this sick ego behind.
2 rounds walking in evening.
Car covered.
Walking with chest up & pride feeling, doing work with full passion.
Mom gave good advice about not to engage with idiots and find better ways to deal with situations.
Bro donât fight with your wife for such small issues âŚ
Itâs the lady who keeps whole house united and feeds everyoneâŚ
Try meditation when u get angry over small issues and congrats for 30 days in advanceâŚ
Bro, you are the one who is stronger, powerful and dominant⌠but you know what will make you great? Itâs the compassion, kindness, gentle behaviour and love. When you donât make others feel smaller, then you become the one who wins over them without even fighting. So, bro keep your ego aside. She is your wife, the only woman who loves you in every possible form. So, you should not fight with her over such small issues, especially donât ever think about beating her, man. She does not deserve this. You know she canât beat you physically, but it doesnât mean that you should put your power on display by beating someone smaller and weaker than you bro. Try to change that bro. Take care.