I am confused and a little uneasy about this. This last Saturday night I was up very late unable to sleep. I decided to look things up on YouTube. I did look up sexual things with the hopes of viewing. But when I saw the images and what they said I got a bad feeling and remembered what I had to lose so I closed out of it. I didn’t fap either. I then thought hey why not put on a horror movie? So scrolling through Netflix I found “The Human Centapide” I thought it sounded interesting so I put it on. In the movie a mad German doctor connects 2 girls and 1 boy from the mouth to the anus using surgery. Well the victims were naked and there were medical papers depicting the surgery in horrific details with diagrams. One diagram showed were on the anus to make an incursion. Well after the victims were connected and crawling around I could see then makes breasts of the women. I didn’t fap to it but it did arouse me a bit. Still I watched the movie to the end and later watched the second one which actually shows the naked victims tied up and one pregnant lady from the front also tied up. I watched the movies for the horror but I feel like due to the content I should have turned them off. However I didn’t.
Point is I’m not sure if I should count that as a relapse. I haven’t so far and kept it secret until now because of my unsurety but I feel like I need to come out and confess. Truth is I don’t know but I feel like I should count it as a relapse. Can someone please help me figure this out? I don’t want to reset my time.