I don’t think you’re the only one. I’m younger than you are but I can relate to this on a level. I feel like it’s because I haven’t made something for myself. I haven’t achieved anything that would make my parents think that I don’t need their meddling. Also you will find someone, trust me. You will. I don’t know how to explain this and it seems like cliché advice but just work on yourself.
Believe me… it’s not forever… I’m a younger man but once i started no fap and got to where i am now… something changed. I feel more confident and am able to talk to women. I’m not afraid of rejection.
I was in the same boat and honestly i was able to do this on day 9!! You can do it, be strong and be patient, do not compare your life to others. You’ll find someone when its time brother!
Can you identify the periods of the day that you feel that you are the most bombarded by urges?
I’m 58 and I for instance get heavy urges in the mid day and then again in the early evening.
Let me know when you get urges the most