Day 4
woke up late. Not up to the mark.
I need to be disciplined to wake up early on time. And to ensure that I complete my course materials beforehand, so I have more free time to practice basketball for the tournament.
Today’s goals:
→ submit my nominations for an event I have to give them for
→ dinner out with a friend (make sure she gets home safe)
→ pay this month’s gym membership fee
winter arc begins today, September 25th
Again Day 0
Pulled my back deadlifting at the gym today. Put a damper to my mood for the rest of the day.
Whenever something bad happens to me, I try to ‘get revenge’ or ‘take things into my own hands’ by PMOing. It’s my way of saying that I don’t like what’s happening, and that I don’t trust God and want to be in control. This is wrong, and I am writing this post to recognize and accept the fact and to change from it.
I will keep trying, because Jesus has not given up on me so I cannot give up either.
To God be all the glory
Bro, if you ever make a switch to the Forest app, do let me know. Would love to study with you.
have been using it for years, so stopped due to usage fatigue 
Back to day 0
Sadly fell yesterday. But it was my mistake and I take ownership of it.
Back is better but still when I go to the gym tomorrow I will avoid back workouts.
Today’s goals are:
→ complete surgery topics for the upcoming exam
→ complete at least 50% of general medicine topics for the upcoming exam
→ create a design for my start-up
evening I’ll probably go out gaming with friends so that will be busy. If I have more time at night I will try to catch up on some reading.
If you are considering a movie to watch, try Ready Player One. Saw it yesterday, was a nice movie.
Bro, last I checked you were preparing second year subjects. Is it like a clinical postings exam?
Under our curriculum in second year as well there are some exams from the final year subjects as well. Just internal exams. Medicine, surgery and OBG
Clinical postings is separate. I already finished those exams for medicine, surgery and OBG some months back. Today was my last day of ortho postings so finished clinical postings exam for that today.
We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.
We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.
Yes, we live under constant danger of death because we serve Jesus, so that the life of Jesus will be evident in our dying bodies
2 Corinthians 4:7-11, NLT
having a lot of sexual energy but will control it with God’s help.
Relapsed on day 10.
Longer streak than before, so I hope to keep improving each time that I work on nofap.
God has helped me fight a lot of urges before, and so I cannot be so ungrateful as to just relapse again and again for all the help and guidance He has given me. When I am in doubt I always go talk to Him and He tells me what to do. Especially recently with some events that were going on.
Psalm 56:3-4
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?
I will have to do better with His help.
Another issue I am facing is that I often feel like I want to date and get a girlfriend. But I know the time is not right now, and I have not found anyone that I would actually want to date. I should NEVER lower my standards, rather I should pray and wait for the person God wants me to marry. I will keep praying and doing that, while waiting patiently on God and working to become more and more like the man that He wants me to become.
Must increase my intensity of studies, because exams are coming fast.
Going to the gym too.