I found out a new method.
If I complete a day, I can downloaded instagram the end of the day.
And If I relapse I have to block my phone for an hour
I found out a new method.
Oh shit I relapsed…
Thanks for the recommendation.
I really like the second part of the song
Day 1 - let’s start again for the very last time
Hello I want to say sorry to you I think you know the reason why also I know That was a old incident but I just want to say sorry. I apologise to you .
Day 3 - Completed
Today I went to a church, I was in a mass.
Day 5 - completed
Day 7 - this time I have to end this forever
I feel that kind of laziness, but for me studing is bigger problem then walking
Day 9 completed
I relapsed after 10 days. I am fed up
I need solution. Nowadays I feel hopeless, sad and axious and this relapse makes it worse
There is always hope, brother. The darkness never lasts forever.
How did you make it to day 10?
And what happened that you went back to PMO today?
I relapsed again (second time)
I downloaded instagram and I had huge urges + lot of stress and anxiety because of graduation
So basically you had the mentality of “it’s all over so let’s enjoy it”. Here you lack awareness and wisdom for it’s not the first time this happened. Now it’s either you continue what you started or claim that you will and then relapse relapse relapse and actually go back to zero like the old times, like you haven’t done anything before.
Sadly it is true. This is one of my hardest part , the day 0 because I lost my progress and my motivation.
I am going to do a personal challange, I will block instagram for a month
It’s either day 0 or day 1. It depends on how you see it.
I’ll translate that for you so you’ll understand where things went wrong and know how to do better next time.
You’re stressed out about studying; graduation is approaching, and you have no idea what you’re doing with your life. Just download Instagram for a second and take some stress off. A little entertainment to relieve the stress.
Oh, she’s super attractive, nice.
Wait, I’m doing NoPMO, this isn’t good. I’m on day 10, and I don’t want to lose my streak. I should stop.
Nah, this is Instagram; everyone uses Instagram; they don’t allow pornography here. It’s fine. Don’t worry about it. It feels nice, right? That buzz you’re feeling right now? Are you stressed about graduating right now? Nope. Enjoy yourself for a while; it’s harmless. We’ll figure things out later.
No, this is bad. I’m getting really fired up and triggered to masturbate now. I really have to stop.
Go ahead, it’s fine. You can always start your streak again. You’re really stressed. You’re under a lot of pressure right now. Your whole life is staring back at you. Education will determine your whole future. Who wouldn’t be stressed? It’s a big deal. A quick PMO session, and you’ll be less stressed. When you’re less stressed, you can restart your streak and have the focus to concentrate on making a new plan.
Man. That was stupid. Now I’ve fully PMO relapsed. A 10-day streak is gone, and I have to start again. Why do I keep doing this to myself?
Well, you’re back on day zero again. You have to report back that you lost your streak. Since you’re on zero, you may as well have another PMO session. You can’t go lower than zero, can you?
That other voice in your head is your deadly enemy. It is lying to you and making every excuse to drag you back to PMO. Recognise that it is the main reason for all your problems. For example, if you weren’t PMOing, you would be a more focused and diligent student and wouldn’t be stressed about studying. It is the reason why you’re stressed, and it’s lying to you that more PMO will solve your problems.
Don’t listen to that voice. If someone in your life wants to do everything in their power to make your life miserable, would you listen to them when they tell you to do something? Treat that voice the same way. There is never an excuse for relapsing. Think about it; if you were 1 year clean and you were stressed about upcoming exams, would that be a good reason to relapse? Or would you find a healthy coping mechanism, plan your studies properly and improve your situation? You know the answer.
You don’t need motivation. Of course, you want your life to be better. That’s why you’re here. That’s why you joined this forum. That’s why you want to quit this addiction. Your diary is written in blood. That’s the blood of the pain this stupid voice in your head has caused you for years. The hardships you have faced. The regrets you have felt deeply. The person you wished you could be and haven’t become yet. That man is still within you, begging for you to stop listening to that voice and finally release him. Show the world what you’re made of.
You were lost when you joined this forum. It’s high time that you found the success you’re seeking for. Start again, brother. Start again seriously. Start with full force.
Remember your words. End the cycle for good. No more PMO. No edging, no peeking, no touching, no nothing. No sexual fantasies, no browsing for girls on Instagram, stay focused and disciplined and improve your life.