I started to send a message to a person I’m following. He is a active user for years, but now he went to relapsing. I wanted to share my story to motivate him but i thought i should share it too all so everything who is in my state will also come to know.
“”""""I was using this app last year. For first few days i did actively participate in challenges. Wrote posts. But after that I lost the motivation, and kept thinking it doesn’t make a big difference if we do it one time…then i thought i did it 3 days back…so i can do today…There…That was it…All over…I lost the interest in the app…I also had many other works coming so i had no time for this…but that shouldn’t be an excuse, right…anyway i uninstalled it so i get space for porn in my phone… Worst decision ever…I got addicted again. Everytime i was thinking bad stuff…I couldn’t remember anything. I got anger issues. For each little thing i get sudden rage of anger. After many months, when it came to a point where i did it daily, i took the leap. I took a decision. I installed this app again. Its my day 3 now.
On a side note, It’s not like i changed drastically. I am taking a peak at porn which I’M NOT SUPPOSED TO DO. THAT IS WRONG. Im trying to control moring urges. Im doing yoga in morning, excercise in evening. Studies also i going by. After all this im thinking about that sometimes. I think the key is to keep ourselves busy most of the time…Do something…And mostly not in phone """"""
This was the msg i wanted to say to him. I Will update my diary daily. People who feel happy after reading my daily post, please give a like, so i will get motivated little