Sorry for the relapse, don’t stress about it too much. You learnt a valuable lesson. Yes, cut out porn out of your life you don’t need it. I too ain’t mad, I know it is a hard journey. To let porn go isn’t easy especially at the start. I have been there too.
I had thoughts like “once a week is fine”.
Or me being totally naïve and stupidly cocky about it. "I am watching porn, but it doesn’t bother me, I am not horney watching it. "
Lot of dumb mistakes on my part like:" okay let me just watch hentai it ain’t that bad right? "
Or masterbate with a guy doing it on a porn site ain’t porn right? ( Yeah, kinda gay too), but I didn’t care it was a things I convinced myself just for the pleasure of it and not feeling as guilty to watch it and also thought it would be like cigreattes leave it bit by bit till you only nibb th thing and then get off it.
The best thing I did was to say at a point enough is enough and I am still in this way of thinking. I couldn’t believe how my life changed. I was kinda tired of my phone, but it was still a thing I used daily for jobs or for leisure(social media). I wasn’t bothered on having all of them(social media) feel still satisfied with only wa and YouTube.
It is more than enough for me. I didn’t want instagram, but I have it as I fell for a girl on another app when I struggled a bit with being sad and couldn’t talk to anyone.
She left and saud she is on instagram. Sounds bad maybe her in a bikini or getting nudes via dm. But to my surprise Instagram was an good investment as I learn german( as the girl is german) also for sports I expanded myself.
Yes, there was a lot of close calls and I had an terrible dm experience, but I just said enough and had deleted the conversation and blocked the person who sent the dm.
To take it serious and commit to staying away is super hard. For me I found it effective going without porn blockers( thanks to what you’ve mentioned, because that was the exact same thing I would have done). I just find porn blockers as a temptation and not a real help. It is a help to help you to break the cycle, but in the end just getting frustrated by not doing much or just really wanna watch porn man only one thing stops you and you can delete it just as easy.
Well, I know going in solo also a risk one word is all it needs, but you have to change your thoughts actively against it and commit on staying away. Not to think of it and at first changing the way you use your devices and how long you use it and where is also keys building up to break up this cycle.
With masterbation it’s the same. Focus on where and when. If you are at that time and in that room to know you might fap. Just don’t entertain the thoughts to masterbate then. Just actively keep yourself busy with something you commit in focus 100% and you find fun to do!
Hope this helps and I wish you good luck on your next journey! Should it help I also have a porn block challenge. It is kinda quite there now, but I will chat more there too. Maybs get a challenger there to be healthy competition so you can break porns hold on you!
Good luck and stay strong and awesome!!