I have been wasting my time over my porn addiction and mainly creative urge in film making and YouTube thorough binging .
So I wasnt able to study on my JEE exam well
GOAL : I will maintain MY JOURNAL and will try to be productive and true to my day
My exams are near so from today , I need to work my ass off to clear exam
Note - (1)if anyone want to help me with distractions and porn especially with creative urges how can I control then and use that urge you in my studies . I will appreciate a lot
(2) if anyone have kind of similar scenario can too join me and make their journal with me , will sure love to read his/her JOURNAL too
NOTE - 1) POMODORO TECHNIQUE - trying 40 - 15 one
(2) KAPALBHATI 5 MINS Every morning and meditation in study breaks
(3) exercise twice a day morning and evening
DAY (1) - SUNDAY 26 JUNE
No fap streak day
Bath at most 10 mins
No of pomodoro done 2 correctly
At least 7 hour sleep❌
Moreover i have ADHD i can’t focus on things uninteresting to me for longer and keep doing it constantly for months . Whenever I agressivly tried to be disciplined and constant my memory ditched me and frustration became partner
I am worthless for now …
Can I change???
Do i even want to live with this horrible suffering
bro, hold on, at first it’s always difficult, but then it will become easier. fight with your impulses and most importantly don’t give up
After betraying myself 1000 times, the sense of pride and trust is no more left in me …
But thankyou brother , i will try to fight
you have to fight, force yourself. hardest to start. The first stages will also be difficult, but the main thing is to endure them and then it will be easier, believe my experience. I had regular relapses for 6 months, every other day. then I stayed longer and the series were longer. from a couple of days passed to a week then relapse. then 2 weeks, relapse, then a month, relapse, and now I have the longest series of 189 days and I feel much better than at the beginning.
Thankyou for sharing your experience…
I feel encourage
Today was my exam . But shift was toughest among others . I was not prepared well and i only knew 5-6 MCQs perfectly. So i did calculated guessing in paper attempting all 60 MCQS.
either i will get at least 40 or maz 100 max ( at least i think so)
After reaching home , i started study back for my next attempt in july …
I hope i will be able to get good marks at least in second attempt