Hey guys. I’m 29, married, no kids yet. So my wife found out about my dirty habit a few days ago. A habit I lied to her about before we got married 2 years ago. I feel like the worst scum on earth and sometimes feel like ending myself. But dont worry, I’m over that now. The feeling of betrayal she must have felt, I couldnt even imagine. Now we’re not really talking to each other, only when necessary. She certainly doesnt let me touch her. And I definitely understand, nor do I deserve it. I pray none of you have to go through what I’m going through. You dont wanna know how that feels.
I tried quitting many times before. But I was never too serious about it. I thought to myself, it wouldnt hurt if she doesnt know, and I’m being careful. The thing is, as careful as you can be, things like this will always be caught. But this time it’s different, with my marriage on the line. I dont want to lose the love of my life. Especially not to something as revolting as p**n.