Day 1 here. A confession

Hey guys. I’m 29, married, no kids yet. So my wife found out about my dirty habit a few days ago. A habit I lied to her about before we got married 2 years ago. I feel like the worst scum on earth and sometimes feel like ending myself. But dont worry, I’m over that now. The feeling of betrayal she must have felt, I couldnt even imagine. Now we’re not really talking to each other, only when necessary. She certainly doesnt let me touch her. And I definitely understand, nor do I deserve it. I pray none of you have to go through what I’m going through. You dont wanna know how that feels.

I tried quitting many times before. But I was never too serious about it. I thought to myself, it wouldnt hurt if she doesnt know, and I’m being careful. The thing is, as careful as you can be, things like this will always be caught. But this time it’s different, with my marriage on the line. I dont want to lose the love of my life. Especially not to something as revolting as p**n.

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Stay strong brother! Porn has taken a lot from you but you can get free of this modern slavery and you will grow much stronger out of this, including your marriage!

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I’m so sorry to hear about what’s happening to you, it’s definitely hard to leave once you start, by I just want to tell you that you’re not alone, you’re not a scumbag for doing it, you hid it cause you thought it was better for her not to know and it’s okay, you can succeed without it, the first days are the toughest, I just want you to concentrate on keeping your mind busy, don’t think about how much you’ve been clean, delete everything, everything that would contribute to you doing it, and start re working your life, if you want to go slower get rid of things slowly so you get more accustomed to living without it, I’m up for chatting if you need it.

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Thank you so much brother. I’m new here and it means a lot knowing theres so much support

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It’s hard, it’s really hard to be honest. But I will get through, thoroughly this time. Reading the comments here, especially the successful stories, has motivated harder towards my goal. How does the chat here work? Do I have to add you as companion?

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To like private chat you just click on the profile of the person you wanna talk with and then just “Message”

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Today happened to be my first day in the 90-day journey as well. Stay strong brother. And try to get your wife to help you as well, I think she will appreciate that

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Will do that. Thank you good sir. I hope you have a good day ahead

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Same goes to you brother. We will conquer our inner demon and be free! Thank you, thats a really good advice

have a good day too man

Brother, its never too late to change. We all are together in this. We understand what you are going through. Focus on your life, your family. Focus on becoming the best partner you can be. Make that your goal. You will achieve this brother. We believe in you.

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You will get over it, for you and your wife. Count on us for everything, stay strong!

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Thank you for the encouraging words brother. It is really hard, I kid you not. I’m doing this because I owe it to myself, my wife and my family, to be the best I can be

Thank you. I’m just starting the journey. It will be hard but I have to get through this no matter what this time.

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Thank you for sharing brother. You are certainly not alone. Your story is actually very much like my own. Married 5 years, together 4 years prior top that, and have kept this addiction a secret up until recently. It definitely has led to broken trust, and feeling like a stranger in my own home. That being said, there is always hope that relationships like ours can be rebuilt with time and a lot of effort. Id be happy to talk if you ever want to. Hang in there my friend.

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