I am 18 and on this journey for about 3 years now.
Have been addicted for atleast 6 years.
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I relapsed moments ago, last streak was 1 day and 12 hours. Yesterday was perfect, i had many urges and conqured them all. It felt good but then last night i had a sexual dream. I didnot during the dream but the problem was that it was about a close female friend of mine. We are really good friends for about 3 years now, and we have been talking over text for the last 2 years due to her moving to another country. After I woke up i remembered the dream vividly and felt quite uneasy, so i thought that I should talk to her about it, maybe it will make me feel better but it made the situation only worse as she said that she had a similar experience some weeks ago. After that i relapsed.
I will now be doing this diary, everytime i get an urge or feel uneasy or i think i might relapse i will write here. If i dont get any urges i will still do an update here so that it becomes a habit.
I hope this helps me