January 8, 2022
Always keep in mind that I’m a Christian so all of my posts will contain information about my relationship with GOD so if this might offend you or this is a sensitive topic for you then you can click off now
I didn’t think too much on my relationship last night. I was up until 1 with my brother singing all the parts of Magnificat. I put it all together in audacity. It was nowhere near perfect or publishable, but I had fun. I had to sing soprano, and a high alto lol.
During that whole process I cracked a few innapropriate jokes which I realize was dumb. I later felt God almost saying “You know that was wrong right?” I said yes. I’ll have to work on my jokes.
I’m struggling with jealousy this morning. My girlfriend cuddles up with her brother on the couch. Which is awesome, and I’m glad she has that bond with her brother, but I worry that when we cuddle it would just feel the same because she’s already done it… I don’t like that feeling… Maybe that’s greed too. Idk. That overwhelming feeling from God I had last night was actually related to this.
I still haven’t decided to just go forward with God and let him handle my crazy emotions… What’s still holding me back? Porn, games, my girlfriend, earthly things. All those temporary things that will never fulfill me…
I need to learn more about God. Who He is and why I should follow Him. If anyone has any books of the Bible to recommend that’d be great!
Anyways, I still have a whole day ahead of me, and a lot to learn. I’m going to hang out with my uncle in a few hours so I’m sure I will enjoy that!
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