So, here I am. Finally going public. Yes, am kind of a loan wolf. I try to avoid connecting with others as much as I can mostly because I try very hard to focus on my business.
I won’t go into detail how Pornography affects my life, everyone knows. I didn’t try seriously before, I started getting serious from January 2018. The battle continues.
Where I am at:
Last relapse was 11 days ago. But I did edge 2 times, the day after relapse, and on the 8th day, I was feeling extremely sad because of a sudden event and all I could think was I have to give myself some comfort, I didn’t watch porn, just some filthy photos online.
Nevertheless, my current streak: 2 Days 12 Hours.
What I am doing to prevent pornography (Till it becomes a habit):
- Removed these apps from my phone (Using “System App Uninstaller” for smartphones):
- Google Play Store (So that I won’t be able to install any browser or video-related apps whenever I want)
- Youtube (A lot of adult videos floating around, constant recommendations of filthy music videos, this app became a headache)
- Any and every browser
- Removed all Wi-Fi info.
Overall, NO internet access on my phone.
- Uninstalled all kinds of browser from my Computer and installed “Waterfox” browser, solely for the following add-on which is not available on new firefox browser:
Procon Latte Content Filter
…where I added certain keywords which if found on any webpage it instantly gets blocked. Also added a password to the add-on, I have no idea what the password is, I just copy-pasted a very long password from passwordsgenerator.net. Now I can neither remove the add-on, nor configure it.
Enabled Parental Control in “Eset Smart Security”. Also added a password here from passwordsgenerator.net, no idea what the password is, so that I can’t disable it anytime I want.
Changed desktop and mobile wallpapers to motivational quotes.
“Rewire companion” app set to remind me every 1 hour with new quotes.
If I keep the computer on after 10:30 pm. Lustful thoughts start to cloud my brain at night, mostly because of the loneliness I guess.
If I am too happy. It’s kind of funny, but if I am too happy my subconscious starts to trick me into thinking it’s ok to watch porn. I have no idea why.
If I am too sad, I try to get away from my sadness using porn. Those bastards are finding new ways these days to make their videos more intense and realistic which helped me get away from reality.
The ultimate goal is to rid my brain of impure thoughts and retain semen as long as possible.
I will check-in daily.
Best of luck to all the brothers and sisters here who are trying to get rid of this satanic habit.