Copper&bronze's diary: life and nofap

Day 4

Im not sure the counter is accurate but I’ll go with it. Last night was easy to say no to porn. I wonder why it’s easier on some nights.

My goal is to have the brain fog lifted and I think I’ll have to have 2 or 3 good weeks of no porn. It’s a work in progress.

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Day 0

Ive been gone about 16 days. Relapsed last night and had trouble blocking the fantasies today. I hate giving in even though I get pleasure from it.

The brain fog remains and I’m not helping myself. Have to be consistent in censoring what I watch.

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Day 8

I find myself using this diary less and less. I was thinking about relapsing tonight but now I’ve given up on that.

I wonder “am I really getting better?” I can’t tell except that I’m standing up against PMO today and I show up for a sexual integrity support group once a week.

I would like to find someone I can date, I just don’t know where to find her. I’m assuming I’ll run into her while I am living my normal life. No dating sites as I didn’t have much luck with a dating site last time.

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Glad to see you back here!
Every effort you make makes you better. Please, keep going starting the new year with a good streak will be worth it.
I just relapsed and feel so stupid for it…

And, I hope you will meet somebody special :slight_smile:

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Day 0

Ive been lost lately, not keeping up with this diary. Every night I ask myself what do I want to do since I mostly relapse at night. A new year doesn’t mean anything to me. I just want to let PMO go more and more until it goes away.

I’ve continued Journaling and reading which I hope will dissipate my desire to act out. I check this app very little now. I’ve lost interest in it. I have to find a reason to keep using this app.

I think I’d like to message people about this, just to see how they are doing. That would give this app more meaning. Be strong and ignore the temptation one day at a time.

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:sob: that’s how I’ve been feeling about this app lately and I think it’s mainly because of the January blues. Like I thought by this time that I’d be over this problem and going into my 300 days or something but the reality is far from it.

I’ve been feeling like this since December and I’m starting to see alot of people on this app ghosting for days including myself, and some dramatic exits. But you know what I shouldn’t expect so much front this app. It’s a tool not a miracle cure , it depends on the way I use it that will benefit me the most.

Anyway hope you’re doing well.

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Day 0

So there are a few problems that I have and maybe you can relate. First, ■■■■ is too easy to access. Second, my will power is not consistent when it comes to nofap. Some days I feel strong enough and some days I don’t care. I do want to get better though.

The only pattern I have right now is that I don’t build long streaks because I don’t believe in the benefits. I just want to give up ■■■■ and masturbate alot less. I just can’t seem to stick to that goal. I’m hoping something changes for me this year where I take nofap seriously and really live the life I want to live.
Let me know if you can relate in any way. :persevere:

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I feel you, dude. I had doubts if I should keep trying. I had thoughts like “Maybe NoFap is not for me? Maybe life is how it is? Maybe I’m just different weirdo?”, but I realized that I have to get out of this mess, that somewhere there is the light of this dark tunnel and if I keep pushing despite relapses I will finally beat this addiction. If I keep grinding, one day will be just my day and lastly winner and looser both fail, but only winner does get back up and does again and again until it goes his way.

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