Day 5
I have been overworked
36H work
And still not sleeping as I am going through some data on my research.
In many previous month, being alone doing work is the absolute recipe for Porn viewing and Fapping.
I am reflecting and writing in advance again so I consicously tell myself that I am on a mission and that primitive brain is supressed by such reminder.
I also noticed that the need to see boobs and bums is almost like a thing that I deserved and needed to be done to satify the craving.
This is WHEN I realize that I am actually addicted.
I have managed more than a year without Fapping. And quickly and easily spiralled down after a while.
I have never consider myself as addicted, but today I myself beg to differ.
All in all, day 5, everything is good here in the midnight of KL, Malaysia.
Day 5 super late but just barely on time. All good no temptation yet. Feel like I’m getting close to where I might be tempted to look up some porn mostly out of curiosity and then fallow through later with the dirty deed. Trying to stay strong though.
Day6 on group / day 8
Bad day at work, my co-wokers being jerk. I pissed off, and I leave them. For the first time since i work there, I literally don’t give a damn about their existence. Am I ashamed? No, I’m proud, I can say no to what I didnt like.
Having a little urge, but still not getting into pmo. And I must not being alone at my room and not spent so much time on toilet.
Edit: whoops there was a typo, it should be “can” not “can’t”.
Recently I smoked a bit of weed,
I haven’t been getting up early to go to church at all this week, on request by another.
But now thinking, actually I could’ve/should’ve gone, as I’m still waiting on them to start work -
I understand what was meant - that person needs more support, motivation and keeping away from News (drug of choice)
The Lord is my rock and my strength.
I’m going to confession this evening, and will get my routine back, And see what I can do to help this friend/colleague of mine.
I’m at low point, I need to keep to what is good, build/adjust/go from there.
Day 6
On my attempt to stop PMO and Porn viewing, I just realize that my strategy was mainly delaying and abstaining.
It works well.
I can go for even a year without Fapping.
But that was my goal, not Fapping.
In between, I still satisfy myself with watching Porn,mainly softcore, so it wouldn’t look so bad.
But in the past 6 days, what I did was an active and coscious decision not to delay, but to stop, avoid and to dislike watching Porn.
It is a much clear objective with conscious decision all along and not to delay the gratification to a certain arbitrary time.
Day 6 for me and let this conscious exercise continue.
Day 3 check in:
This one gas been a tiring week. I am glad(conscious at the same time) it’s sunday tomorrow. I have got relatives at home and am generally surrounded by people all the time. No urges therefore. Going strong.
Final Day check-in
Kudos everyone,
With grace of almighty i have completed this challenge. I have become 3 weeks stronger now. Since i have a diary of my own so that it . Bye.
All good, lots to say,… maybe I’ll add it later.
It’d be a shame to see you go @Resurrection,
Are you sure you don’t wanna stay another week?
@buntyak - do you want to join the challenge of simply checking daily? I can add you to the Poll above if you share your country and sharing code.
I wonder if we should update the rules slightly for the new week, like; allowing replies and comments to people’s daily post.
What do you guys think? Any thoughts about anything?
Current streak- day 0
Longest streak- day 21
Code- 826714
Location- USA.
I am 22 years old and have been trying to get rid of PMO ever since i found out it was a problem age 18. Started addiction age 10. I am capable of more and I know I can overcome the power of such addiction. No looking back. I hate this addiction alot!! I will support this cause.
Day 7
Still the same issue: the urge to fap. In the morning i watch some porn, and realizing it was wrong. But then, the urge to fap are high until now; I start to sleep. Thanks to this app and my motivation, I can resist the urge.
Moral of the story; don’t start your day with porn.
USA.