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Thank you for having this!
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Welcome to the group guys!Check-in Week 5 Monday
I made the foolish mistake of buying some weed.
My mind has been dulled down, I’ve been back and forth with looking.
I’m not going back to weed, because I don’t want that irritabile, ungrounded mind.
I want my mind to be sharp again, ready to listen and say “yes” and rejoice in challenges.
I’m not going back to porn, because I want a real lady in my life, someone I’d create joy with.
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Haha, awesome! 
Also, checking in - Day 1 of week 5. Monday, December 3. All ok.
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Adding a short note - The last week or so has been the first time in my streak that I have sensed danger of relapsing on my part. I have found myself reminiscing about or reliving past sex or sexual activity, and fantasizing about potential future sexual situations. All of which seems not so bad on the surface (I am only considering/evaluating scenarios) but underneath I know that I am close to dangerous territory and it would only take a little misstep to turn the momentum in an undesirable direction.
I think one factor behind the risk might be that I completed my target of 100 days and I am well beyond it now, and I find myself in a “now what” mood every now and then (and sometimes even a “what’s the point” mood - but I watch against that).
So I need to take fresh guard (I have completed a century after all!), and decide on new goals. Need to make this a daddy hundred, if not a double century.
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Day four check in, still kicking.
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Week 5 - Monday.
Had a relapse with my gf.
The good thing is that I don’t feel bad as always.
I feel that I can go on. I fell, but I can stand up again.
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Tuesday 4th December 2018
One of a kind
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Checking in - Tuesday, December 4. Day 2 of week 5. All OK.
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Day 2 check in
Easy so far no urges at all 
I suppose the relapse I had 3 days ago just drained me…
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Btw what does this mean " 
unhatched days joining midweek "
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Oh so its non relapse days now I get it thank u
Week 5 Check-in Tuesday 
I still feel partially stoned - my mind is dull. Solution - exercise the mind, play guitar, piano, sing, do some office work, clean, tidy up bedroom, through away stuff, do some ironing, do some press ups, prayer, offer my help to others, write stuff like this.
I woke up early this morning - but had nothing pressing to get on with. Too many choices.
Solution - just get up, wash/shower,
get dressed immediately,
Always avoid using phone/laptop in the morning.
Things you can do: eat, clean, go to church, prayer, use duolingo language app [but no aimless, pointless, curious Internet usage]
Do emails, Do language. Capito?!! bene!
Ganbatte yo! 
I’ve gotta stand tall now, and care for self as if self was a child without a parent. I’ve got to be like the good father to me, the boy. I need to praise him in his good acts, and guide him when he gets lost.
Amen
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Day five, still free.
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@anon67854825 I’ll be offline for awhile so I edited myself out for the rest of the week and game. I’m going on a spiritual retreat.
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Checking in - Wednesday, December 5. Day 3 of week 5. All OK.
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