"Check-in" Daily - diary challenge

Wed 17th Feb

:candle::candle::candle:
Hope all are well, and Lent is part of your journey.

Not a lot to say tonight, though I could start, but just keeping to my commitment of checking in.

Thanks be to God for today,
Thank you for giving me a way out.

I’m really enjoying the easyway to quit smoking book too :blush:

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Thurs 18th Feb :+1:

All good, Thanks be to God always :pray:
I’m going to refrain from daily check-in for now. There are only so many hours the day.
Hope you’re all well :hugs:

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Thank you for your continued prayers. I’ve really been struggling as I want to get out of my current job and city and find a place where my partner and I can find strong Christian community but doors don’t seem to be opening up.

That has been hard to accept and work has also been so busy and stressful. One of my co-workers has been arrested for alleged drug smuggling which has been a shock for all of us but also meant we have had to take over all his work. It’s been super stressful so I don’t have much time to look for new jobs, I’m also feeling burned out so the thought of doing a new job is overwhelming oftentimes. I had an interview the week before last week which seemed to go well but they are not ready to hire full time for at least a year which was a shock.

All of this has made recovery take a back burner and in my frustration with both the process and obstacles as well as the seeming meaninglessness of my life at present has had me but trusting the Lord as I should and using pmo more often to cope. I’m hoping to get out of this downward spiral from right now.

@Gk-00

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Sunday Feb 21

@anon67854825 @Forodwaith @Forerunner

Guys, I’m in quarantine. Some of my siblings were tested positive for Covid, so we are currently locked-down in our home since wednesday, waiting to heal up and do the next test. It will take at least a couple weeks of quarantine, hoping it will not take longer than that to be able to go out again.

Luckily we are mostly fine, aside from flu-like symptoms, this is a blessing for sure. :pray:

I’m currently doing fairly well in my no-PMO journey, I want to treat this quarantine period as a way to renovate myself, I want to come out of this stronger than before, be an anchor and a light of hope for my family, and not dwell in my personal struggles.

Lord, help us to get through this :pray:

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Oh wow! I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

I am just about one day into my next reboot.

@anon67854825

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I’m two days back in the game now. Now to three, and then five, and then my first week.

@anon67854825 @Gk-00

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I’m about three days into my journey. The grace of this past first Sunday in lent’s message seems to be working within me and I continue to yield to Him who though tempted sinned not. Oh Jesus, by thy obedience keep me in grace.

Amen

@anon67854825 @Gk-00

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Four days in. Last night I talked with my partner about what I’m struggling with and it was hard but good. I always feel sad to disappoint them but it’s important that our relationship be based on the truth and honesty is integral. If anything, the conversation spurs me to take this all more seriously. So help me God.

@anon67854825 @Gk-00

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Back to day one, because you know, life sucks. Lol

@anon67854825 @Gk-00

Back to day three! I was very tempted least night and this morning but just kept praying and asking Jesus to fill my desires with good things, letting go of the refuse, laying a hold of Him who takes hold of me in Christ. It felt healing and not just like I’m getting over a moment of temptation and for that I’m very grateful.

@anon67854825 @Gk-00

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Brothers, there is constant guilt going on in my mind that i was fapping daily 3-4 times to pmo since last 23 yrs (from age of 12)…now i m 35 but there is a constant guilt inside me that if my health will recover, if i will grow in my life, if i will ever be with energy like earlier…i feel scared that i might die anytime, i might collapse, i seriously unable to live with this guilt that i wasted my precious semens since last 23 yrs… won’t be ever able to recover again what i lost…will i able to again become healthy with same energy level. Always feel like crying in alone.

:pray: Does your hair grow by your will?
Doesn’t your heart beat beyond your control?
Of course we can damage ourselves, porn is a great example of how we do damage to ourselves; the damage of believing in lies, “more is better” “bigger, faster, harder - and plateaus of pleasure”

Take care of your body the best you can, Trust in God to restore you, and Keep Your Angel beside you to dispel any myths that are like the quicksand that pulls us in to negative cycles :pray:

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Thanks @Aoshigreen bro…that really helps :pray:

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@Rohitash You have to let go of the past brother. Holding onto it is only causing you more guilt, regret, anxiety and depression.

There is nothing you can do to change the past, but your future is still ahead of you. 35 years old is 35 years young in the grand scheme of things. As long as you make sure you are making the best of the life ahead of you, you will be fine.

Guys who have done far worse have recovered. I’m friends with a man in his 50s who is on 850+ days on hard mode. He has more energy and strength than most people in their 20s, and he had over 30 years of hardcore daily addiction. He has fully recovered, and his only regret is that it took him so long.

Promise yourself that you are done self-harming through PMO, and be at peace with your decision. Be kind to yourself and take refuge in GOD as @anon67854825 said.

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You brothers @anon67854825 @Forerunner are really blessings in my life… whenever i fell, u guys and our other brothers have really helped me to stand on my feet and bounce back… Thanks for being for all the support and help that we need in tough times…god bless u all brothers… My prayers always for u all. I promise that no more self harming anymore through PMO or any guilt :pray::bowing_man:

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Fresh start from 10 nov day0

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Brothers, you people have always been of great help.
I need one help to advise as how to control urges.
Now a days i am getting lots of urges and i fap relapse to PMO as i am unable to control myself.
Pls advise as how to control the urges and donot relapse to PMO. pls advise, suggest, help :pray:

Rohitash , you can beat this like @Forerunner says we all can beat this I believe that but we’ve got to put the work in. Read EasyPeasy and try the method that’s what I’m attempting at the moment but if that doesn’t work look up universal man Mark Queppet and follow his guides.
One way or another the determined man or woman will find the exit from this addiction :pray:

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What are the methods described in easypeasy to resist pmo ? Can you tell me?

So I fell off the wagon (again!) I didn’t have a clear strategy nor had I set my intention to resist pmo come what may. Damn it I did resist for awhile but its those nagging doubts we entertain and the excuses we make damn it I make
Anyway I’m reaffirming my commitment to change my thinking and thus change my behaviour but equally to change my behaviour and my thinking as I change my behaviour whichever works. I’ve read easypeasy twice and I’m still not 100% clear its going to work for me but I have the concepts fairly well understood but porn is a bitch to overcome in my opinion or else we wouldn’t all be on here.
Anyway I’m reaffirming again my commitment to change
I choose to see myself as an ex user
I choose to read out no pmo affirmations every day
I choose to work out a clear path to ultimate victory
I choose to not allow myself to pmo even under intense pressure
I choose to reduce the pressure by avoiding tempting situations and taking complete control of my thinking
God help me

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