Checking in - Friday 13th September. All good, thank GOD.
@Special_Bird Congratulations on passing day 18! Keep going strong man.
“We don’t choose to be addicted; what we choose to do is deny our pain.”
A critical reason why it’s so difficult to break free of an addiction is associating more pain with quitting than with abstaining. As much pain and havoc PMO has wreaked on our lives, there is still a tendency to see it with rose-tinted glasses, as something pleasurable and enjoyable. But the marks of true pleasure and enjoyment are in the memories we have of the event afterwards. No one can look back and say, Yup, that relapse was so worth it. I’d gladly do that again.
However, we view PMO as a source of euphoria and stress relief, forgetting how we felt the moment after relapsing. How can you ask someone to stop doing something he enjoys? Why would someone choose to stop doing what takes away his stress? This is the fight we have with ourselves, and our bodies rebel against us. But this viewpoint is a lie and an illusion. Our stress and anxiety are multiplied upon relapse, and the joy disappears.
What helps us break free of this thought pattern is honest reflection on our past. We will reach that conclusion that PMO is a source of pain and not an antidote. To help aid us in this, we create strong reasons to quit, things we have a burning desire for which we cannot hope to accomplish while engaged in PMO. With those reasons, PMO loses its appeal in our lives.