Hey looking for serious NF companions to help through the journey and share thoughts with. I am doing complete no PMO or any other combination that involves P or M. I don’t have a target my intention is that this will be forever unless I have to be away from my fiancee for longer than say a few week, if that makes sense and even then preference would be imagination MO or homemade P if you get my drift
So abit about my story:
I was first exposed to soft core porn when I was about 10 and tried to get my hands on what ever I could from then on, I hit the mother load when I was about 13 and found my dads movie stash and it was all down hill from their. At 16 I got my first PC and could view what ever I wanted and the binges got longer, I wanked more and to harder stuff all while not feeling fulfilled and wasting precious hours of my time away damaging myself.
I am now 28 and have a Fiancee who I have been with 10 years, she knows I PMOd on at least on a weekly basis but never knew the extent, our sex life great but for some reason I always went back to porn especially when I was down or plain bored. I want to kick my addiction because it is making me feel numb and is preventing me from fully embracing my fiancee or life in general.
I am not the typical NoFAPer in sense that I can abstain for a long time say 2 wks and be ok, but after a while strong the urges come and my brain tries to trick me and rationalize that its ok and I have a 2 day binge of porn lots of edging and eventual M all while been evasive of my partner and really hating what I’m doing.
This time I am determined hence joined the community. I am not religious nor do believe PMO is inherently wrong. The absolute key is moderation which as an addict I am incapable of unfortunately.
Sorry for the rant but context is key to understanding