I broke down yesterday evening when I arrived home. I was alone and felt bored. That’s when the urges started to flood my brain and I actively blocked all attempts of my conscience to stop me from giving in. The urges are strongest when I am alone (especially in the evening hours).
So, yesterday I thought I would spend an hour doing pmo, but it turned out I did it for about three hours. In the process I worsened my addiction by adding new pictures of pornstars in my brain, These will surface in my mind later to tempt me to watch more. Evidently, I haven’t done any progress in this fight and so, I don’t have much advice to give.
But, the relapse I had yesterday reminded me that my will-power is not strong enough alone. I need to move myself away from situations that make it easy to give in. For example, I need to avoid being alone at night. So, one important piece of advice I can give to you and to myself is to seriously reconsider my routine, and remove specific situations that cause temptation.
I’m not sure how the accountability feature works, it seems like it’s one thing that can really help. Maybe you have more ideas. I JUST WANT TO DO ANYTHING TO SAVE ME FROM THIS!! .