I had failed many many too many times. It is very very hard for me. I dont know if this is only with me or others are also suffering.
I am confused right now. Am i searching for women or there is some magnet which keeps me relapsing into the trap.
Yeah ! This is a trap. Natural as everybody feels like that. I dont know but i am too much into this sex thing.
Orgasm, opposite sex, always been troubling me since i advanced into teenage.
If i resist but never so long, had to give in, the hormones whatever, hijacks my mind into submission. Total domination.
Am i enjoying it, at first looks like so but in the end, emptyness… emptyness… sleepy… weak… no motivation… these things when i get involved into them sucks my precious sexual energy. I can feel something in me rising as my streak progress & when i indulge into pmo, my situation becomes like a inflated tyre, like some puncture, accident happens… tragedy of my life.
Tried to fight and sometimes when i got recovered & thought yeah ! I can relax now. Then & there. The sleep wiplash me back and slip into the hole of tragedy again. One moment your focus gone. The streak is gone. So much attention to keep all the time. So much stress of Rising high. The struggle is real atleast for me, it is too tough to bear. So,
They say until you reach your final goal, never relax. They say right.
Let the Rewire Begin.