Almost day 6. I’m facing urges, especially when I see triggering stuff on social media, but I will.not.quit.ever.
Didn’t study much today, was out meeting friends.
Whenever I get urges I remember that it’s too much to lose and to little to gain.
Sexual urges are the shortest of them all. I just have to wait for 30 seconds to a minute then BAM the urge is gone like it never existed.
God is the biggest reward. When I get urges I focus on how much He is to me, and that helps me change focus from the temporary pleasure of 3 seconds porn provides to the permanent pleasure God gives me.
Never quit qutting.
Sheer will power.
If anyone watches basketball, today’s matches were fire
Literally motivation. Two teams won simply because of the players freakin will power @The_integrous_one Donavan Mitchell 71 point too much dedication.
Can’t do upper body exercises. Today I will do ab workout.
Maybe its time to make big changes.
I haven’t been productive at all lately. Simply wasting time chasing dopamine. Which I need to stop.
I have started physiotherapy for my shoulder. It’s going to be a long road for me, but it;s a challenge and I’m not backing down. Doctor told me not to lift weights again, but I’m going to work on strengthening my shoulders till I can go back to gymming. This is not going to stop me.
The only person who decides when to stop is me. Not the doctors. Not my haters. No anyone else. Just me.
By August 2023 I’ll be back in the gym lifting weights. And playing basketball better than before.
That’s my goal. My long term goal for this next months.
Now for nearer short-term goals:
By 13th January, I will finish 50% of revision of my portions for first year exams. And I’ll finish at least the rough draft of my first book.