Ash_Matt's journal [Year of the flame]

Sorry…Ash,Kaizen,…and other buddies.I have let you done.
I mastrubated on feb 22(2:15pm)…there were literally no triggers…no nothing.Just an evil in my mind which reminded of mastrubating…no actress…nothing else.
After surviving 2 days full of urges(feb20,21)
.I literally didnt thought that I would have mastrubated later.
After the moment I ejaculated,I thought
…i thought that this is not me…this was literally someone else.
And my Inner peace was literally shattered after 80 days of monk mode nofap.
I m sad,hope this depression goes away…this is my first streak on this app and the first fap after those 80 days.

"THOSE WHO HAVE HIGHER STREAKS PLEASE DO NOT MASTRUBATE .
Its pure pain…after that.
But i didnt felt the guilt which i used to get when I matsrubated when I was 14.
I will come far more stronger because now I know how it feels after clearing those 80days in literally just 3mins.
Thanks for reading.:-):slight_smile:
Thanks for the awesome support of yall:-)

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Damn dude, that’s sad to hear. It was such a high streak and only 10 days away from 90. You did amazing bro, and this post is a lesson for us all striving to achieve that high streak that you are never truly free from this addiction until I don’t know, a very long time.

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It was such a good streak, same thing happened with ash a few days back, get back up guys, we have to be careful, keep our guard up always.

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Thanks bro…
Literally you need to soo much time to be freed from this …
But we must move on,we must fight

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If anything or anyone triggers me I’ll just say no to it.

We will be back,believe me.

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Youre one of the cornerstones of rewirecompanion. Respect Ash_Matt

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Well, thanks, but I’m not really a cornerstone or anything. All our regulars are considered the backbone of the community by definition.
You kinds words are greatly appreciated :slight_smile:

Send nukes pizza

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:smiley: thats a sweet joke, nice.

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@swayam22 I have experienced the same thing everytime on my bigger streaks.

You relapse not due to urges but due to the evil in your mind.
It’s like a hot debate in there.
You relapse to stop this suffering. You can’t concentrate, you can’t do anything, there is a debate in your mind whether to relapse or to keep going.

Sorry to hear that you relapsed my friend.

Stay strong my dude!

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:rofl::rofl:getting naughty @Ash_Matt

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@Samaranjay :man_facepalming: :man_facepalming: When you said that I googled it and saw that there was a double meaning to it :face_with_symbols_over_mouth: why does everything have a double meaning? Sorry @NukePizza that’s not what I meant :roll_eyes:

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Oh man :rofl::rofl: I thought you did that intentionally, but how could a saint do that.

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I’m not a saint, but thanks for the info, I won’t be talking about nukes again :sweat_smile: :joy:

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:rofl::rofl:that’s good. Have an awesome day ahead bro!

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no lol its an amazing joke haha

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Yeah “send nu***” Is for coomers

And this is for nofappers!

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Yes Dude you are totally correct.
Its really like a debate going in there
For literally 3 days,no urges,just the evil whispering in there.
I wish u luck and my whole support.
Thanks for your kind words:-)

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Good to see that there are others who understand my problems,good luck to you as well my friend @swayam22

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