Ash_Matt's Battle reports [War against PMO]

Starting afresh


I’ve cleared my old diary, so that I can rebirth. Consistent check-ins.

Relapsed

  • It’s because I let my guard down. I am good at fooling myself by doing semi-productive things, things which are helpful to me, but not what I should be doing.
  • No excuses. But I will not fall to the chaser effect. I also feel that I should implement even more changes. Here they are:

Reasons why I will do better this time

  1. I’m going to update this diary daily, since that seems to be a good habit many great noFappers have. Here are my daily goals-
    :orange_circle: Cold shower 3 times a day or more
    :orange_circle: Watch 1 noFap motivational video daily
    :orange_circle: Complete my daily goals as declared in the Better Everyday challenge
    :orange_circle: Not using Rewire Companion, my Google Docs (or anything writing related like Wattpad etc.) and Habitica till 8 pm (this is the semi-productive stuff that is killing me)
    :orange_circle: Update my diary daily
    :orange_circle: Stick to my workout schedule and update it
    :orange_circle: Sleep by 10 pm

Thanks guys for your support. Another thing would be- for my streak, please refer this link since I’m not using the Rewire App.

(An Agni Kai is a traditional firebender duel that is centuries old. It is a fight for one’s honor and is won only when one opponent burns the other. The outcome of an Agni Kai affects the honor of each opponent. For me, it’s me against PMO.)

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Flame on :fire:

That was a good motto, but I think I want a new one that reflects me more now. It is-

Vincit qui se vincit


Welcome to my new diary. I’ll be posting here from now. Huge thank you to all my fellow warriors who supported me so far, I fight for you. Thank you Elohim for not giving up for me, I fight for you. For my future spouse and family, I fight for you. For those entrapped by sexual addictions, I fight for you.
Porn kills love.
I was a coward. I was disgraced. But I will regain my honor.

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Day 0 check-in

Relapsed, feel despicable. But there is only one way now, and that is up. I’m not out; I will never quit quitting.

Flame on :fire:
Vincit qui se vincit
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Word of advice! Listen to your uncle :joy:

Best advice by general Iroh

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@GOVIND-19 Bruh Uncle Iroh is a legend. He is the epitome of power and control. Thanks for sharing, here, have some tea :tea:

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Ash Matt did you relapsed again bro?
:pleading_face: :pleading_face:

Feeling bad to see you down. May God give you strength to fight against the devil’s desire. :pray::pray:

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@nihar Thank you. Yeah, I can’t face this on my own; I’m leaning on God’s strength.

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One cup of jasmine tea please :joy:

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Ash matt_

Flame on buddy! :fire:

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@nofapstar123 Thanks, and


you bet I will. I will take down this monster.

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Bro you are just :fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire::fire:. Your posts are very inspiring.

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@Samaranjay Thanks man. How can my posts not be inspiring if such I’m getting inspired by such great friends like y’all ? :blue_heart: :fire:

There’s always the flame. Thanks man, let’s do this!

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@Ash_Matt , I know a relapse is hard but I recommend you take Nofap a bit lightly and if you happen to think about it all the time, you will be more pressured to a relapse by yourself.

Stay busy and stop self-loathing/hating!
It’s the last part that absolutely killed me.
When you fail to do a task , don’t hate yourself, ask for forgiveness either to yourself or the almighty himself.
This way , you can raise respect for yourself and you will be better off with yourself.

Cheers and Stay Strong my dude!

You have nothing to lose from quitting PMO but quite everything to gain from it .

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Hey come on let’s be brave.we can beat this together.

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@zorim Very true. Thank you for your advise. :fire:
I will be busy from now.

@Fighter_and_Brave Yes, let’s!!

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Agni Kai Check-in day 1


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Flame on,
Ash
Vincit qui se vincit

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Vincit qui se Vincit :ok_hand:
All the best for this new journey.
Learning many new things from you. Keep going strong :muscle:

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@Byebyemediocrity Thanks man. Good to see you after a while.

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Agni Kai check-in day 2

Accounting:
:white_check_mark: Returned the series I was reading on Kindle Unlimited. I will not read the Kindle anymore, need to focus on studies.
:x: Wasted some time watching ATLA/TLOK. I don’t want to do this now, will do so after exams. :joy: I was practising airbending with my humidifier.
:orange_circle: Skipped workout because I had a strenuous day today and I don’t want to over-strain myself and fall ill
:orange_circle: Only 2 cold showers today, but I was outside the house from 10 to 4 so no opportunity tbh
:orange_circle: Sleeping after 10. Need to complete some work.

Rest all is done :+1:

Urges: Present, obviously, as chaser. Burn them! :fire:

:fire:
Flame on,
Ash
Vincit qui se vincit

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Agni Kai check-in day 3


:orange_circle: Didn’t waste much time today
:x: Only 1 cold shower today; kind of a rest day
:x: Not working out this week due to exams

:arrow_right: Agreed with my parents that if I score well, I will allow myself to read my favourite novels on Weekends.

Today was a horrible day in the beginning. I have cut down on all dopamine sources so I was going crazy and moody and just horrible. Hence the above reading on weekends. Can’t even play bball matches due to exams. So I had extreme withdrawals, so I read a bit because low dopamine was killing me, I couldn’t focus. Any advice on this guys?

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Flame on,
Ash
Vincit qui se vincit

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Man I am having same kind of problem, I just have to use my phone and in the evening I am getting an urge to play everyday so I ordered a new ball and gonna fix my ring so at least I can dribble around and practice shooting, honestly it works, I spent entire days studying not using phone and just one thing different was that I used to do my basketball drill in the courtyard.

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