May 24, 2018 4:43 AM
Mother says that I’m too serious.
That’s how I am.
How can I change myself when I’m fine with the way that I am?
I feel anxious the more that I think about this.
I will go.
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[17:49] jk: Learning Barbara Oakley’s Mindshift
[17:49] jk: I want to learn about Mindshift
[17:49] jk: How I can shift my mind
[17:49] jk: adapt to the environment
[17:50] jk: I want to read a lot of books.
[17:50] jk: I will sign up for school.
[17:53] jk: Tomorrow, my brother graduates from university.
I go to his house with parents hours before the graduation starts.(edited)
[17:56] jk: Hi, Diary.
I’m in so many Discord servers. [img class=“smile” src="//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/dead.png" alt=“x_x” style=“max-width:100%;”]
[17:56] jk: Diary,
I don’t want to forget to put the athelete’s foot prescription medication next to the toner that I use everyday.
I’m going to have farewell dinner meeting with my co-workers.
They want me to work for them during school breaks.
My school’s breaks are very short, they paid me too few, I don’t want to work here anymore.(edited)
Diary, I’m feeling bored.
I leave to eat Korean BBQ in 10 minutes with my co-workers.
[17:59] jk: Hi, Diary.
I’m so much more open with my brother than I used to be.
He’s so good to me. I want to reciprocate the good.(edited)
[22:50] jk: Dear Diary
[22:50] jk: I’m back home from Kang O Dong All you can eat KBBQ at Hannam Chain(edited)
[22:50] jk: I ate with my co-workers, Dan and Justin
[22:50] jk: The meal was so good.
[22:52] jk: Diary, I’m brushing my teeth.
[23:00] jk: diary, I hate myself
[23:00] jk: I’m covering myself to quit this job and keep relationships intact, and good
[23:00] jk: I hate myself for being so dishonest with people(edited)
[23:00] jk: Who isn’t dishonest, besides autistic and retarded peopel?
[23:15] jk: I want to stretch
[23:35] jk: Brushed/flossed my teeth!
[23:47] jk: Showered!
[00:14] jk: Stretched my body!
June 19, 2018
Meditated today via headspace.
It felt nice.
Played some Armor games.
Kongregate game window is so small.
I don’t know how people can play Kong.
Barbara said that games that help with vision, attention, and help with the aging brain.
Thanks, Barbara.
I will game at least 30 minutes a day.
I play piano 30 minutes a day.
I walk everyday, get sunlight outside everyday.
I haven’t been doing vigorous exercise because of neck pain/disc.
I’ve been reading a lot more than I have.
[23:17] jk: ughh
[23:17] jk: i went to bible study with mom(edited)
[23:17] jk: the people think satan possess people and cause them to have mental illnesses.
I’m back on this site.
I want a self development diary, so I’m back.
I signed up for actualized.org forums, but I don’t think they’ll validate my email/username anytime soon.
What’s on my mind?:
What happened in my therapy appointment was great.
I connected with a person.
I attended it. Great.
I’ll run to increase my serotonin levels.
brush teeth,
run,
shower,
Missed Anxiety workshop at 9AM. Canceled subsequent workshops.
Ran and stretched instead
I just woke up, and I feel hungry.
My psychiatrist listed my MDD in partial remission.
It’s a really cloudy day today.
Read one piece.
Wow, Big mom vs. Queen!
Whew, just ran around and 'round.
Ate McDonald’s. I’m filled.
I’ll eat the Sausage McMuffin later.
Ate it.
Went to BJJ class.
Met young, gay christian people.
Met M.P., my childhood friend.
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I slept reallly well.
A big part of it has something to do with exercise.