so after 8 days I relapsed
after the first fap did not feel the guilt…but then went on a binge and felt bad
It was same old story of me taking things lightly and not being motivated…topics shifted from the usual things on mobile phone to the porn and then it happened.
During the past 8 days…I was able to more closely notice my emotions…I was very angry in the morning for a silly reason and it haunted me till afternoon…so definitely affective control is also a problem in me…
I will now again have to go that cycle…sad…but I am motivated…because relapse is part of recovery
after this relapse two more learning points… I ll add
- it is a problem treat it…it is high time
- not every experience in life u should have.
- never be alone in the house.
- mobile to be used in living room
- self discipline and plan
- Every morning and affirm yourself that I will leave ot
- be firm and very firm
- when you are having a negative emotion take a pause.( do u mindfulness, watch comedy vids, listen to song etc.)
- keep your life simple…don’t make it complicated
love you and everyone