I struggled to sleep, waking around 1:30 & 3:30.
Having an erection I tugged both times for comfort, and stopped hoping to not have a wet dream which did happen.
It was pornographic.
I tried to retain during the dream but gave in.
So, I’m resetting my counter.
Sorry guys and sorry to myself most of all
Please feel free to comment, give me an arse kicking, support or whatever you feel necessary
I am glad I’ve quit porn and the aim to orgasm,
but I haven’t quit stimulation, and will go to confession.
I’m here because I want to be honest.
I know to stop something is simply a choice.
So, why do I want to quit a bit of tugging?
Well, for starters, I’m Christian, therefore I want to follow Christ. Did he say “Thou shall not Fap?”
I don’t think so, but he did say “I’m not here to change the law, but complete it”
So I’m going with that, I’m not gonna do anything that might encourage me to spill my seed.
I’m sure pushing myself to 10/20/50% towards orgasm and stopping can’t be good.
Abstaining and semen retention seem like a good thing, and I’m now trusting that it is, and that it’ll do what it needs to - I should probably do some impartial reading into it.
If my body naturally has a nocturnal emission of it’s own accord, then that’s fine. It’s not something I’m going to worry or beat myself up about.
I’m also not going to worry about my size changing as it has done while abstaining.
Nature will take it’s course.
Here’s a little thought experiment:
try and do nothing, and see what is happening
Your heart is still pumping blood around your body, You can still sense and feel the ground beneath your feet and the clothes against your skin.
You cannot do nothing.
Whether you’re aware of it or not,
you are always doing something.
So let nature do it’s thing and get on with the things that bear good fruit.