Angel's Diary [25 M]

Hello,
I like to be called as Angel, Guardian angel because it gives me a feeling of becoming responsible…

I am so happy I found this app and even more surprised and also feeling “I’m not alone”; since so many people are in this fight against PMO…
I started on 25th and after a couple of stumbles/relapses the same day and resetting timer carried on for 4 days straight with happy feeling until I had relapses on 5th day i.e today…
Although feeling so sick and so down…
after a cold shower each time and quiet decisions on what triggered… I am feeling a bit better…
I didn’t know whether I should share when I am feeling low but as I observed being alone is one of triggers to provoke relapse, so I decided to share my diary while I’m feeling down… to boost myself up- to not quit but keep on the fight… even if it means to start over again… but not for the next time… gotta promise myself a ‘no relapse’ :persevere:

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I think angel are girls !!
I may be wrong.

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Angels can be both males and females :smiley:
Edit& correction: Angels need not be male or female sorry for edit
I browsed through internet so something could help us know more :smiley:

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Hey Angel. Nice to have you here :grinning:

Same here. Loneliness is extremely powerful. (Maybe because we have no way to hide from our feelings?). For me, writing to my diary was always extremely useful. If you’re bored you have something to do, you can think about how you feel and you are never alone.

PS: in my opinion (I’m not religious, or at least I can’t identify with a certain religion but have high faith in what i believe) angels are above the mortal differentiation between male or female. Or at least it doesn’t matter for them :smiley: but that could be a depate for itself :wink:

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Thank you very much @neveragaintw :slight_smile: :slight_smile: Yes, after the relapse been thinking of ways to fight the quietness and loneliness during the peak trigger hours (which is late afternoon 3pm to 4pm) for me…
thinking of various activities I could do :slight_smile:

A warm welcome from me as well, Angel!
Glad you decided to join :slight_smile:

Never, and I repeat, NEVER think you have to deal with a low on your own. Sure, in the end you have and always will in some way, but know that the people on this forum are here for you, no matter if you feel low or high. We are not here to only read stories of people who made it through, we are here to help each other actually write that stories later!

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Thank you so much @amadeus.muench

With inspiration from amazing people on here… my journey has once again begun :slight_smile:
By reading inspirational stories, I found out how to deal when the trigger starts and how to manage the day doing productive activities and meditation which make this journey more astounding! :smiley:
I won’t ever feel alone ever… as you said :slight_smile:

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sigh man! :cry:
relapsed because I thought back about the wet dream that I went through today early mornjng at 5
Wish I hadn’t
Wish I hadn’t
so sweet of 6 days :cry:

Hello
I’m sorry for the long disappearance
I’ve been silently battling though~ I ve watched quite a lot of motivational videos and well, I don’t know if the changes I’m writing down are rrally change but yeah, I’m myself feeling a bit happy about them
Before NoFap since last 2 years (although I’ve been an addict for 12 years) Waking up late as I used to sleep late at almost 10am due to addiction to gaming and late night P- watching. being lazy, skipping my classes, skipping lunch, lazy afternoons being wasted again on porn and lazy late evening. I was a fraeaking consumer lazy ass.
Then NoFap to my rescue…
Nowadays almost everyday, waking up at the time period of 4:30am to 6am, exercises and home workouts, jogging and morning walks with my dad (I even didn’t listen to my father before NoFap being an ignorant and mischievious son to be ashamed of), helping him in kitchen with all the meals, regularly going to my classes, clearing my doubts and being attentive, Having not only the 3 meals, but 3 meals with proper nutrition- i.e not much carbohydrates :slight_smile:
And some best parts: I have also started again to sketch, make my digital arts projects & homeworks.
BEST OF ALL: I have a special someone. :slight_smile: She listened when I told her whatI aas and what I am going through and promised to be by my side. The Best of Best part is- She decided to be a supportive NoFapper also i.e No discussion of topics that will arouse me. I owe her my happiness :heart:

NoFap Rocks :slight_smile:

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Just yesterday I had this kinda wet dream though at 3am night bevause I wa watching a song and this had those bad stuffs (edited to keep out triggering words) in nasty clothing. I thought I would never get aroused but well, seems the inevitable happened in my sleep.
So back to battle
Also, my new code: 90cd9d

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You are doing great in your life.

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@anon66785751 Thanks for compliments brother :slight_smile:
Wish you all the very best in your life too! :+1:

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Too long time never entered any experience on this splendid journey in between eh :smiley:

Well, I am happy about this behaviour of mine:
There is a messenger app I keep for having normal chats with friends from my past games. As usual, once in a while a black sheep pops out and posts disgusting nsfl stuffs in groups and open posts.
Unlike earlier, “yesterday” I saw one post and promptly blocked the person without even having a 0.001% interest at looking what was the post that person posted since it looked so nasty remembering my addicted past.

I’m thankful to all those who knowingly and unknowingly supported and motivated me to keep going and staying strong on this journey

God Bless!
Peace :v:
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That’s awesome bro. Keep going :smile:

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Aye
Thank you bro @speak.aditya.asia :slight_smile:

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