Day 42
Woke up - 6:30 am 
Workout - 30 mins
15 minutes meditation
Cold shower
Study - 4 hrs
School work
Book reading
Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping
Evening bicycle ride
Daily math practice
Youtube detox
Ok I have a story to share with you guys . Yesterday , I talked to an old friend of mine (ngl , this is the same person who taught me about porn and fapping) . I can never forgive him for that but its never the person’s fault only , you yourself are to be blame for it too , anyways I was too young at that time so yeah…
We were in class 7th when we last met physically (I feel happy leaving that place 
) , I started watching porn since then on his advice 
. I was not a typical addict , it was under control and fapping was quite rare , I did it once in a few months but I knew all that at such a young age . He did that too and told me websites to watch . I left the school in the middle of the session because of my father’s transfer , anyhow completed 7th in new school but lockdown started when I just reached 8th . Now this was the time I fell onto this and this was also the time when puberty hit me and my body started to prepare semen . So technically I starting wasting semen ever since it started to form , I never have had its benefits 
. But today I am not gonna talk about myself , I am going to tell about an experience that I had of life .
So that friend about which I told , lets name him PETER 
(made up name privacy ).
I always remembered Peter as an average student who was not very good at studies but was blessed with MUSIC skills 
. All girls of the whole class were attracted him , I wanted to be a guy like that too 
so I made friendship with him , in his influence , I started music and once I started I realized that I had better voice lol nvm . We were pretty good frands (chaddi buddies) . I helped him in his studies , he taught me some music . But this sharing got more than studies and music . Before I met him , I used to be the MOST SINCERE , SILENT , INNOCENT , INTELLIGENT 
kid loved by teachers but hated by classmates . He was my first BEST BUDDY , I had many before but they all moved with other guys (sed lyf !). I met PETER and I got changed completely , both positively and negatively . Positive things which came were that I started to communicate and speak up to people , became confident , he taught me to be free and independent and peaked out where I lacked . But to contradict this , I got in friend circle having full adult mind , the kid who never even raised his voice against anyone , now started to abuse , I became talkative , dirty minded like them , started gaming and my studies started to get affected (worst version of me ever , but girls liked this fr . I then realized that trying to impress girls is destroying urself). Thank God that I moved from there , else I might not even be writing this journal now . So I moved to other place , fapped 1 nd half year and then started nofap in 9th
Peter still fapped till the end of 9th year . He still did all those things , abused , watched porn , fapped and spent time attracting girls . I was lucky that I realized before .
But things change right here , I had a conversation with him after a long time and I was mind struck by what I got to know . He got a guider in his life , started nofapping , stopped porn , started studying seriously , scored amazing in the tests , left his friend circle and above all HE BECAME A BRAHMACHARI(even after more girls started to like him )… I was like
So the guy whom I joked at , became a lifechanger for me . This happens nowhere XD
I was feeling raged and jealous at him , like how did he do this , I mean he was a damn addicted and ruined guy . I was shocked for sometime and I became dead serious , at that moment , I was committed that I have to do it too . Not only nofap , I am literally doing it from a year but also I need to improve myself in other things like he did . I need to stop using cuss words , stop thinking about girls or getting attracted to them and focus on JUST MY STUDIES . These are more important for me now because I again shifted to a new place a month ago and the school I am in is of top level , the students , the teachers and the city itself . And I was wasting time doing useless things + to add to my difficulties , its class 10th .
I have written a whole diary in my notepad as soon as I had self realization , I blocked distractions , changed my laptop to by study partner and started working towards my goal . Now I everyday look at that diary and remind myself of my goals .
#STAYIN MOTIVATED #STAYIN STRONG