Hello everyone, I am new here and want to tell my story first.
I started masturbating when I was 10 years old (some may think thats not possible but it is and I’m really ashamed of it).
Its been 10 years of continuous masturbation varying from 8-10 times a day to once in a week but everytime after relapsing I wish I had died.
My longest streak was of 64 days when I got a girlfriend but relapsed when broke up. This 10 year habit has snatched every opportunity from me ruining my school life and relations with friends.
I am skinny, short (5’3), introvert, underconfident, frequent mood fluctuations, basically i just hate who I am. A girl on whom I had a crush for 2 years rejected me because of short height and that just killed me from inside. Sometimes I think this 10 year habit is the cause of all this and I deeply regret for not stopping earlier. My childhood friends started ignoring me when we all grew up because they are now perfect and I’m just an addict.
I recently learned about this app and started my journey but did that again the next day so now I’m here starting my diary so that I keep myself engaged in something . I don’t know how this will go but let’s hope for the best.
Quitting porn is not a big deal for me . Masturbation is the main problem . I don’t know everytime I decide of quitting, my hand automatically goes in my pants and then just boom im done.
Become muscular and healthy
Have cleaner thoughts
Increase height(height after 18 not possible but still ill be hopefully)
High self esteem
I will write down my thoughts and what all I go through everyday.
Just need your support.
My code- 1pnr0q