ADIOZ DIARY: The First step towards enlightenment

This is great thing about thia app bro… No one judges you here…

Write your feelings openly bro…nothing wrong in it… I felt kind of self realisation after doing so and I take things seriously after that…

Keep going brother.

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@neo_150
Yeah brother you’re right, no one judges here… But if I write everything… Then people might see me from different mindset.
(Again I don’t care what people think and do but somewhat it effects me)

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Writing it down helps

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Today’s my day was not at all productive…
But I was busy too much like I am getting pains in legs and feel too tired to do anything…

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Resume tom… It ll be fine

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@Adioz_aka_Adidas Make money first. One day the person you have been investing your time and money will say that they didn’t ask you to do…and then they will be right. So, make yourself your first priority. Never compromise on this.

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Today I have decided I have to make that mindset "Either Do or Die…"

I have Decided, from now on :point_down:

I WILL NOT DO PMO in Any Cost(Circumstances)

My mind :brain: already Blown by Seeing myself keep on relapsing…

No More Relapsing

Starting Becoming Myself Again

Live My Life to Full Potential

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U don’t feel hesitated to share here… No one will judge you… You will be great again…

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I will become great again no doubt…
I won’t stop until I throw this PMO shit totally out of my head.

I am totally done with this…
I can’t bear this anymore… :angry: :rage:

Can’t express how much angry I am feeling now.
Feel like I should say too much vulgar words to that Porn industry… :face_with_symbols_over_mouth: :face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth:

Even if I do nothing gonna happen to that industry unless we all change for a reason.

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Dedicated to those who really do this… even if I care about them…

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After watching small erotic scene in friends mobile I considered that as relapse… All of the sudden that happened and it’s not intentional… But I had that choice to ignore…

But I can’t reset counter(considering relapse) every single day by watching any YouTube videos played by someone else which I can’t ignore… !!

In which I have choice to…“ignore”… I will mark that as relapse from now on…

And

I am starting “HARD MODE” from now on… :triumph:

whoever wants to join can join journey with me…
It’s time to be serious about my life…
Every time I encounter something bad I will get up again and I will try again Harder…

#enough_is_enough :face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth::face_with_symbols_over_mouth:

#NoMorePeeking 🙅❌🙅❌

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“Today’s Day in Short”

Morning I started reading "Easypeasy book"
But after couple of minutes my mind got distracted and I got busy in some other work.
Later I forgot that I was reading that book…
I started listening sadhguru’s discourses about life…

I gained much knowledge but gaining knowledge is not enough until we take action by using that knowledge…

Don’t think that I have unproductive day I was on work and doing this as well… In leisure time.

Just before few minutes I just did stupid mistake…
Saw erotic scene in friends mobile… Unintentionally.
I consider every single thing(digitally) which gives me “dopamine in wrong way” is relapse.

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Sometimes I feel like I have wasted 103days of this year…
if I use it properly may be I have developed new habit or I am on other level of mindfulness…
Last year hurts me a lot when I get flashback of all things happened with me(or I have done to myself) & how I felt that time…

These are just my thoughts :thinking::thought_balloon: and emotions…

Now I am thinking to utilize all the time I have ahead or now how much time in my hand :raised_hand:…!!
I shouldn’t waste that energy which help me in day to day life… I should value every single thing which God gave me, but yet I didn’t notice at all…!

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Well , That 103 days are gone and will never comeback again … Focus on the future now . I know it’s difficult to overcome a difficult past , but not impossible .
Believe in yourself .

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Yeah brother, you said absolutely right.
I will do as you said…
Thanks your support bro :slight_smile:

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One more thing what I forgot to mention…
Because of this nofap clean streak I am feeling small energy inside me :pinching_hand:.
Which makes me happy… Even today morning I was happy and smiling without any reason… Like I am happy from inner soul. My manager also noticed the same…

So, what we need in our life??
Happiness and peace… don’t we? Now I am experiencing the same then why I should go back?
I won’t waste my time and energy in this now on…

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Yeah I understand that single peek destroy everyones streak…
But it depends on what we are peek…
Y’day was great day from the morning to evening
Later I peek something which leads me to relapse in the night. At home… I resist for very long time… But didn’t diverted my mind anyhow.
So, I relapsed.
I accept that I watch porn in the end. That’s why I relapsed another reason is my mind was curious to know how it felt after many days clean… Because I felt a lot of energy in the night inside me.
I know that energy which I could use either in meaning way or in bad habits…
I chose wrong… So I am facing consequences.

I bought this "New statue of Buddha" for "helping me to keep Calm & maintain Peace in every situation…"

May it help me…

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