Hey guys, I’m very curious about this since I think it makes a big difference:
How does this whole journey feels to you
During my time as a computer game addict, I got furious if I wasn’t able to get to my computer. It was the only thing i was thinking about. Every day, every second. Stopping it crashed my whole life. If I was on my way home and i got delayed I raged because I knew that I will miss some gaming time
Now, with porn/internet usage, it feels completely different.
I feel perfectly fine the whole day until, at a sudden moment, I can’t help but acting out. It feels as if I dream. I can see what I do but I can’t change my behavior. The weird thing is, not a single time during the day I have thoughts around porn. I can see hot adds on the street but not get triggered at all. I can think about how easy this whole not-watching-porn is and in the next second I can sit in front of my computer jerking off
How is it in your case? am I the only one feeling like that? Do you have cravings during the day? Is it more like a continuous craving after porn or more an impulse?