@acarnegie743's Diary- Success Story

Day 25: Yesterday I visited the clinic.Today I am feeling better. I woke up this morning fresh, with a spring to my feet… after so many days. I will attribute this to the medicines + the streak. Stay true and faithful to Nofap. I am getting healed and positively transformed.

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Day 30- I feel slight improvement in my energy level and health. Don’t give in to those urges and excuses and tricks of the mind. Stay faithful to the cause of your own well being. Stay grounded and firm to my decision.

I do hope by Day 60, things would noticeably improve even though I don’t expect much. I am feeling a sense of accomplishment and joy to have completed 30 days today. If I had relapsed, I would have been cursing myself and would had been drowned in guilt, shame, hopelessness and depression. What an awful feeling and in top of that I would have physically felt drained and lethargic. PMO is the worst enemy of today’s youth, specially the males. I should have never fallen into this trap which is hugely responsible for damaging my whole life.
I will finally get rid of this bad habit.

Day 35 running…
I have gained the rank of Army Commander in this App :smile::smile:

Wow! It’s nice to know that I have reached so far. 40 is my highest streak till date ( 2 times) but I will create a new record and will reach and cross 90 days very soon.

God bless me! Thank you.

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24/05/19

Relapsed after 37 Days streak at 5:30 AM :sob::sob::unamused::frowning::frowning::frowning::zipper_mouth_face::zipper_mouth_face::zipper_mouth_face:

2019 Nofap Progress :-

Jan- 5
Feb-0
March- 3

April- 3
May- 1

( ## 2018 Nofap Progress :-

Jan-7
Feb-7
March-6

April- 4
May- 5
June-2

July- 4
August- 2
September- 3

October- 5
November- 3
December- 1.)

I Need Discipline, discipline, discipline in my life. I am heavily regretting it but I hope that overall, I am still making gradual progress in my track record.
Atleast for this month of May, I will not succumb to pmo. I need to overhaul my overall lifestyle to succeed in Nofap and improve my life in general. It’s ok for now. 37 Days was a really good streak and I have relapsed only once in this month. It’s not that bad. I am still making gradual progress. Cheer up and come back stronger and better. Let’s hope that the coming month of June will be completely clean. Oh God give me the strength and wisdom to do this.

I should have avoided all the triggers. Softporn and erotic contents in YouTube, Movies and some songs, I should have avoided entertaining them. Don’t watch erotic and triggering pictures, videos, songs, movies even though it may seem to be harmless and innocently fun. If I had avoided them, I wouldn’t have relapsed today. But this is somewhat difficult and subtle.

  1. Completely avoid Social media
  2. Strictly Censor YouTube and Whatsapp and other videos, songs and movies.
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Day 7- I promise to myself that atleast the month of June will be PMO free. It’s just a matter of a month. I must and I will accomplish this goal.

Read the porn circuit e-book, it is quite interesting.

2019 Nofap Progress :-

June 2, 5:40 am.
Day 0 again after 8 days.

Jan- 5
Feb-0
March- 3

April- 3
May- 1
June- 1.

:frowning::frowning::frowning::frowning: Quite a sad day for me.

Just for a few seconds of momentary and perverted pleasure, I have ruined my streak again. It seems almost impossible to get out of this rut. 2019 is also almost half finished and there seems to be no end to this addiction and slavery. Time is fast running out.

I will have to change my vision of nofap. I think it’s time now. I had targeted for a gradual reduction in my pmo use instead of attempting to get rid of it at a one go. I have definitely succeeded in that. Just a glimpse at my progress over the last year:

2018:-

Jan,Feb, March–> 20.
April, May, June–> 11.
July, August, Sept.–> 9.
Oct, Nov, Dec.–> 9.

2019:-

Jan, Feb, March–> 8.
April, May, June–> 5.

I have succeeded in achieving my goal of gradual de-addiction. It has served it’s purpose. I am better today than I was a year before. But I am not satisfied. Now, I have to adopt a new strategy, a new mindset, a new definite goal. It is that of completely giving up pmoing for once and for all. I think I am quite prepared and ready for this now.

My whole lifestyle would have to be upgraded without which it won’t happen. But I will make it happen. I will improve my daily routine, habits and overall lifestyle. I am sick of pmo and the way I am living right now. Discipline is my lesson.
I am quitting pmo for once and for all this time.

In fact, now I have a clear nofap goal–> 365 Days Brahmacharya i.e. No pmo ( including sex) for the next 365 Days or 1 Year. It will be completed on June 3, 2020. Many guys have done it I can also do it :+1::+1::+1:. Good Luck! You will successfully do it!! Remember all the lessons that I have learned.

June 5, 3:00 AM.

Failed again.

Main reason- Too much mental stress, physical pain and anxiety.
2019:-
Jan- 5
Feb- 0
Mar- 3

April- 3
May- 1
Jun- 2

Shame, shame, shame, shame, shame, shame, shame, shame, shame, shame… on myself. I am feeling very suicidal. If I had a gun, I would have finished myself by now. Other methods seem to be too painful to even think about it. This life isn’t worth living anymore for me. I am cursed. My problems will never end. If someday I get hold of any gun I would just blow myself off.

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Hello friend, life is to precious to end, you can still come back, you can still reach your dreams, you can still succeed. Remember you are doing nofap to be a better version of yourself, and blaming and shaming yourself isnt going to do it for you. You need an accountant, someone to be there for you and I would like to suggest a WhatsApp group that’s helping me quite a bit! It’s a group full of good spirited people, supportive and full of knowledge, here is the link: https://chat.whatsapp.com/CNnaQRmn8or1Hh0HVtl7VU you can share anything you want and remain anonymous, you can even use a fake number if you don’t want to give your phone number out. I highly suggest doing that brother. Best of luck and im ready to help if you need me.

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Thanks for your concern @gunsblazing

June 12, 3:40 AM IST

Relapsed again. :confounded::confounded::confounded::slightly_frowning_face::slightly_frowning_face::pensive::pensive::disappointed::disappointed::worried::worried::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy::sleepy:

So, in 2019

Jan- 5
Feb- 0
March- 3

April- 3
May- 1
June- 3

Will not update till I complete 90 days. It sucks!!!

Hey don’t do that. First complete 7 days and then go from there. You have to start small goal to aim high goal. Or else your mind will think it’s unreal.
Hope you recover well.
:facepunch::fire:

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18 June 2019, 12:05 AM. Relapsed.

Jan- 5
Feb- 0
March- 3

April- 3
May- 1
June- 4

90 Days here I come!!!

23 June, 2019. 9:15 AM Relapsed again.

18 June 2019, 12:05 AM. Relapsed.

Jan- 5
Feb- 0
March- 3

April- 3
May- 1
June- 5

OMG, it’s getting worse now.

One or the other excuse is always made to justify pmoing. No more excuse. Even if I feel depressed, stressed, lethargic, bored, pain in the body, I Wouldn’t pmo ever again. No more excuses, only results. Only 6 months are remaining for 2019 to be completed and I haven’t been still able to overcome pmi or even accimplish Nofap 90 days challenge for once. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh… I must do it now. Please help me God!!! I should give up pmoing for once and for all just like I gave up smoking fornonce and for all. It’s been 8 months I have given up smoking. I haven’t smoked even once after that. If I can give up smoking, why can’t I give up pmoing. I think I can. But I get complacent. Remember, pmo is a sweet poison for the soul, body, health, brain power, vitality and vigour in the body. It is a sugar coated venom which really destroys everything good for a momentary perverted pleasure. Please be serious about it. Give it up forever. Just say NO to pmo. I can do it. God help me to do it. I eill overcome this pathetic addiction. I will come out as a better man. I know this. Give up this ugly habit. It doesn’t befit my personality. Give up, just drop it. and if next time any urges come tonindulge in ir, just say NO and forget about it. Just like I have given up smoking. I can do it, I can do it.Be strong and firm. I can do it, I can do it. I am becoming a better version of myself. Inam becoming better. Yes, I can do this.

Day 1- Pmo is the worst thing a man can do to himself. Pmo is like AIDS disease. Stay away from it.

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Day 3- Feeling terribly terrible since I last relapsed. I shouldn’t have gave into those silly urges. It’s so frustrating now. Pmo isn’t just worth the price that is to be paid for it. No rational person will indulge in it for long.

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What helped me man was to just take action and don’t bother thinking about the days. Just go all the way man. Or you can sleep in your car which is helping me think about the future rather than pleasure that lasts for a moment. I wan’t everlasting pleasure not pleasure that lasts for a tiny bit and in exchange have to trade in my life force to get just a little pleasure that won’t even last long lol. How silly is that right?
Just go all the way man. And have a different routine.