I was made to be a child prostitute from the age of 7 by my paternal relation (PR).
I got out when I was 20.
I repressed the memories until June last year.
The memories come in waves.
When I remember i feel and see everything as if I were living it.
This is what makes quitting hard, feeling it and having no control over it.
The thing that keeps me fighting is that i refuse to let PR control me that way anymore, and that’s what fapping does, it tells him that his actions back then are still controlling me now.
By the way, yes this means I’m female, if that wasn’t obvious.