Today, I have reached 34th day.
And in May, I will reach 150th day.
In that month, the woman I REALLY-REALLY love will MARRY ANOTHER MAN
This is the FIRST TIME I’ve met and made friends with the woman I want to marry
I have NEVER expressed my love for her. Because …
When I met and befriended her, She was ENGANGED!
I’m NOT a jerk or bastard who likes to take other people’s fiancees.
so I let it go with someone else.
My HEART really-really HURTS.
but I know, if in that month, I was STILL a chronic fapper, then surely …
The PAIN would increase trillions of times.
I will HOLD myself until that day comes.
then WILL hold on FOREVER.
I will give my feelings to a loving God.
Thank you, O God, for all the blessings you have bestowed upon me.
Thank you for this life.
PS: My heart cried while writing this