A lifetime of addiction

Hello everone.

I’m 48 years old and have been batteling this addiction for a long time. I got into porn at 14 years old, so it’s been 34 years. It started with magazines, and then listening to stories on phone sex lines, renting movies and buying movies. I couldn’t get enough! And just so you know there was alot of money and time wasted even early on. The phone Bill’s were insane. Lied to my parents constantly, but even when I lived on my own I had the phone shut off because of the Bill’s I racked up.
Finaly I started getting girlfriends so that helped slow me down a bit, but I always put porn before them even though they didnt know. So early on I was having ED.
When the internet was up and running that’s when my addiction really went crazy. I’m here to tell you that if you stay in the porn world it will get worse.
I’m a recovering alcoholic (sober 9 years now) and quit smoking 11 years ago and started both at the age of 11. So I know I can beat this addiction.
After 22 days my brain is clearing a bit, but there are still a lot of thoughts and images. I have been feeding my brain with this vile garbage for years.
Porn is extremely addicting trust me. Started soft core and now extreme. I hear guys say" oh it’s fake, that’s not really happening".
I want this shit out of my life for good, I’ve been a pervert for far to long. I want to be a protector of women and children not someone who objectifies them.
I would love to see the porn industry fall, but we all know that will not happen.
There is so much more of my story I could share but I will stop for now.
Stay strong everyone, and trust me if I can do it so can you. Just take it one day at a time, this is how I choose to live my life now!
Any questions for me feel free to ask.
Peace :blush::muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle:

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What is your current streak now ?

22 days. My longest streak is 62 days. But this time I’ve taken all social media out.

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Did you have physical problems due to fapping ?
Any Mental also ?

Yes! Years and years of putting that garbage into my brain has done a lot of damage. I have ed which is getting better. My engery level was awful. My brain was mush. But your brain will clear the garbage out in time

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Yes. It does.
Brain is just our pet machine.

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What about your relationships with women ?

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Many thanks for this testimonial and your encouragement! It’s very important for youngest to understand how bad this addiction is!

Don’t hesitate to tell us more about all your observations. We all could learn from you.

Together we are taking back our lifes!

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34 years?
Wow, that’s big
And yet you’re recovering. if you can recover from your addiction of 34 years - everyone else can, many of whom haven’t even lived a life that long

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Thank you for sharing all this!
It gives me hope and motivation. No matter how long you suffered from that addiction, you can still change and make a difference

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Thank you so much! And we are all in this together! :muscle::muscle::muscle::muscle:

This Is why i shared, because i know there are a lot of young people out there struggling. And if I can help them get off the destructive road I was on I will!

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Worlds most dangerous addiction, yet it gets ignored / gets hided. The world makes it look normal but actually this addiction is devastating.

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My current strike is 26*
I am 27 years old. Now somehow I keep myself busy from pornography world. I need few suggestions from you,

  1. How did you fought with ED? how do i know, i don’t have ed? Now the more days passes argues and thoughts getting stronger. People out in this community says they feel free but for my case, I feel opposite is happening with me. I never consumed alcohol or anything as such but my erect penis can last for only 5 min. Do I need to go to a doctor and check?
  2. I have a close female friend. From last few days,I started hanging out with her more and expecting she to talk with me sex related things. We are good friends but if i cross my limits then offcours she will cut me out. So shall i stop talking and getting involved in her life? ( My mind always looking for someone to talk again)

Please support :slight_smile:

I struggle with ed but it is porn induced ed. Watching porn I had no problem getting an erection but during sex to get an erection I would have to think of porn to get aroused. But it does get better if you can avoid pmo. The Last time I got 60 days in it was around 40 days that my ed was decreasing and I was able to get health erections.

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Okay Thanks for your suggestions.