A Champion's Diary

Hello. I am a 17 year old male, I have been watching porn since I was 12 years old and now I am heavily addicted. I have never been past 45 days of nofap. I just relapsed after 2 day Streak, I’m going to try to write in this diary everyday, nothing big but just some small things about what has been happening. I would really appreciate it if everyone checked in and gave some feedback also. I will write every day, honestly I have tried everything and I don’t know how to stop this addiction so I’m going to need all the help that I can get. Feel free to start your own diaries on here but make sure you reply to your own post rather than creating a whole new one. Let’s all help each other out and beat this addiction together. This week I will be attending my first youth at a local church. I also think I am starting to seriously get Ed. Please leave your comments below. Cya tomorrow😁.

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So it’s day one right now, just finishes school and I feel good. I woke up and meditated which greatly helped during my maths test. I know for sure my social skills are improving, it wasn’t that I wasn’t ever any good at talking to people but I just Did not see the point in talking to them. Today a girl opened up to me about her problems and for one I genuinely wanted to help her with oth no ulterior motives. How have you guys been? Let’s go conquer day 2 tomorrow.

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Stay clean brother, the ultimate revenge to old habits is total ignorance.

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Day 2 basically done. Nothing much happened today. I noticed I am starting to genuinely care for people more. Thank you guys for the support!

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Day 3 done. Nothing much happened today.

Man, if I would be 17 again I would swear to God to attain full semen retention forever. I am exactly 10 years older and I can tell you as your future self that right now you lay the foundation to a life full of enchanted mysteries and initiations. Take this as your first big test that decides where your life will lead you. In 10 years you can be average or an initiated one… Choose wisely. Now is the time to sculp your will power.

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Relapsed. On day 4. I don’t know to stop myself in that period where you are about to do it, any tips?

Once you do eye contact with porn I’m afraid is to late, is like gazing at Medusa face , your soul and mind will be stoned.
Use a copper pipe long as forearm and hit your shin, the sharp pain will put your desires back in place. Make sure you don’t hit to hard. This is a primitive practice, but may work to some people.

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Can this same practice be done by a rubber band striking ones hand?

It’s up to you what you want to use, but if you hit your hand it can be swollen and after you can’t use it for others things. Shin is a place where your bone gets stronger after hits and release a pain that is different than hitting with rubber your hand, a pain which can distract brain from sinking in erotic fantasies.

Just completed day 1 - hit some new PB’s in the gym today for chest day. Did some study and that’s about it. I didn’t have a single thought to watch porn today, I wonder why that is?

Day 2 complete - nothing much today, I noticed some brain fog during my first period at school. I had to cancel my gym membership due to corona. Side note if any of you guys gym: should I continue to eat how many calories I eat now or eat fewer calories (I was currently bulking) also should I use this corona opportunity to lose some body fat (my abs are visible sometimes but there is also visible fat there). I have noticed that since staring nofap I have started to love to converse with people its gotten so easy and everyone refers to me as being charismatic. This is crazy because I have been constantly relapsing, I thhjink this proves my theory that it isn’t no Fap but the fact that you are trying to improve yourself while on no Fap. How about you guys. Also I have been planning to enter sales, any tips?

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Great buddy u been addicted to PMO but i have been addicted to sex chat and now i promise to keep up the thing as girls show u all need but the fact that they make me fall to a trap and now i understood and right from today i promise u bro that i wonnt chat anymore and keep myself away from the sexting and the shit

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And i request u to join me to bro
Love from an Indian brother

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Day 3 completed - not much brain fog today, I also feel resistant to the cold???

Well… Just relapsed. I hate myself. Can anyone out ther help me I feel so weak. I have no problem with not wanking but it’s porn that I’m addicted to.

You should change, or better said evolve, the name of your diary. If you identify as an addict, you will subconsciously stay like it. Call yourself what you want to become. Like “A Healer’s Diary” or “A great Successor’s Diary”. You know what I mean… Be what you want to become. :slight_smile:

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Day 1 - I was extremely sleepy today in school and I felt no energy. Last night I did some meditation but ended up just falling asleep. Ever since I started no Fap it has gotten easier to talk to girls as friends and not just sex objects. More girls love to talk to me, and I genuinely like talking to them. Today I got told by a female friend that I have become a much more empathetic and affectionate person. This is odd considering I never felt those emotions and just last year people would say I acted ‘psychopathic ally’. I think its not about what day you are on but making those individual days count. I have progressed so far, but it hasn’t been because of some stupid number. Don’t rely on ‘magical superpowers’ that come with nofap, because thats a lie, if you want to make a change you have to actively seek it. :blush:

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i love these :point_up_2: lines :heart_eyes:
thanks for being honest and saying what actual it is…

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Day 2 - not much today, either my accounting test was hard or I just bombed it. Although I know for sure that I had brain fog during it.