[32 M] Give Me Back the Feeling of Excitement! ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️

Day 5 v2:

Slept in and drove for most of the day and into the evening. No real opportunities to have a PMO.

Started talking to one of my sister’s friends (Sissy) through IG and matched with someone (Moana) on Tinder while cutting through Ohio.

I’ve noticed I’ve been engaging with more women (than usual) lately. I have heard of people becoming more attractive to others as they success through their journey. I don’t know if that’s the case here or if just covering ground between Michigan and Florida increases your chances simply by volume.

Either way. 5 new days of success!

Day 6 v2:

Went out on a date with Moana last night and was able to stay hard and please her.

I believe not having a PMO in the past six days helped me perform, however I did induce a Royal Honey packet.

I don’t want to have to rely on supplements or medication for as long as possible, so I will continue to avoid having a PMO. However, it is nice to know there is an over-the-counter supplement that will assist performance as I progress through my journey.

I will cure my PIED!

Day 7 v2:

No triggers, so nothing much to report.

In bed right now, would normally probably be browsing porn right now, but journaling this instead. Checking in everyday is definitely helping me stay true to myself.

Day 8 v2:

It’s Christmas day. I spent Christmas with my mom.

My friend Kristen, known her since high school, was passing through town. She called and asked if she could stop by and give me a hug.

There was short conversation outside and ended with a hug and an impromptu kiss… at least I didn’t expect it.

Kristen has exercized this behavior before, but it never went much further. She’ll briefly step into my life every year or so.

I joke about doing more and that doesn’t seem to scare her off. I moved back home when I decided to finish school and she moved back after her divorce, so opportunities are slim. She told me she’s house-sitting this week, so we’ll see what happens.

It’s opportunities like this that push me to continue this journey. My PIED will hurt me less and less every successful day!

Damn dude, you’re an omega chad, you don’t have any need of PMO whatsoever (not that anyone truly needs it) keep it up man, I can’t even phantom how horrible PIED must be

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Hey, what is the name of this app. I feel like it could really be helpful to me.

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@Damane

Idk if being an omega Chad is considered to be a good thing :thinking:

I feel like the less I try, the easier encounters become, but I’m nervous to seal the deal because it can be hard to stay hard.

I’m sure when I’m fully cured of PIED, opportunities will disappear over night haha. That’s how the world works :upside_down_face:

@rurenewed

If you’re asking about the app I use to put my phone into ‘panic’ mode it’s called:

Detoxify - Porn Blocker/App Blocker

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Day 9 v2:

Sick in bed, don’t know what’s wrong, but just taking it easy for the day.

This can be a dangerous opportunity for relapse, so I wanted to commit by saying it here.

This illness is making me weak, but my will continues to be strong!

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Day 10 v2:

Feeling better today so that’s a good start.

Someone had advised me to watch porn after my trip to see if I get hard. If I get hard, it’s PIED. If not, I may have ED. I tried this out and thankfully it’s only PIED.

Now I say I just did this, yet I’m still on day 10. I knew attempting this test could lead to a slippery slope leading to relapse. I took this as a test of will. Even though I felt myself grow erect, I did not proceed to finish the job.

I told myself after testing this, I would share here my success. The sense of having a PMO dangled right in front of me and being able to say no proves to me that I’m getting stronger.

Putting my phone in ‘panic’ mode for the next few hours just in case.

With the right tools, much support, and strong will I will beat my PIED into the ground

Ahh bro u relpased .

Watching porn is a relpase even if u didn’t do MO …

@Dean_Ambrose For the reasons I am doing this, I wouldn’t think so. The stuff I see on IG are sometimes TV could be considered porn. Also, when I see some friends, they usually have porn on in the room that we begin in.

I count it like if I had a drug addiction. If I called my dealer, had him deliver, then flushed the drugs down the toilet, that is not a relapse. If anything, that is a strong victory.

I am not on this platform to quit porn or quit masturbating as some others are. I’m trying to reset my dopamine levels to where real life sex turns me on as much as it used to. Just avoiding PMO is my goal.

If I was enrolled in some of the competitive programs I see being posted, I would accept elimination if the rules qualify this as a relapse

The competition I play with myself (literally): I am only allowed to cum in/on someone or to my thoughts. No media or visual aids to help me finish.

@Dean_Ambrose I greatly appreciate your concern and support. Sometimes I need that extra kick in the butt to set myself straight.

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Day 11 v2:

Feeling much better today. Will probably say 100% tomorrow, if not real close.

Last night Moana snapped me saying how she wishes I was local; she’s a gal that I matched and met up with her on my way back up from Florida.

Things bounced between sexual to general conversation, NO IMAGES, NO VIDEO, and most importantly NO PMO.

Once conversation got a bit too steamy, I told her the NyQuil was kicking in and that I’m passing out. Made sure not to accidentally read her replies until the morning

The PMO monsters are after me! But I’m beating them off with stick instead of my hand.

Another VICTORY!

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Day 12 v2:

Spent the majority of yesterday cleaning the house and didn’t experience any urges.

I just got back from the urologist regarding my ED. He said it is likely a mixture of stress causing b my ED and persribed me a low dose of generic viagra. Doctor said I should only be on this medication only temporarily as I appear to be healthy, just

I have been out work since April. I had a job lined up where I was supposed to begin in November, but that got pushed to next month January. I originally had enough money set aside to survive until November, so that makes as that is around when I first noticed having issues holding an erection.

Also have been studying for my CPA, it’s been stressful. Probably just as tough, if not more difficult than any college course I have taken.

Being financially tight, studying for exams, and having some form of ED paired with seeing SugarMama probably increased my stress level, resulting in a viscous circle.

Later tonight I have plans to see Sissy for the first time. Don’t know how things will go; we have exchanged less than 20 messages back and forth, but going out with someone new is always exciting.

Another successful day! Let’s keep it up (literally)

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Day 13 v2:

Date last night with Sissy was a good time. Just had dinner and drinks. She’s a strong woman with a good head on her shoulders, she’s up and staying her own business. That type of ambition makes want her a little more, but I’m content with just being friends. She seems like a smart person to be around.

Backtracking to Ohio tonight to see Moana. She seems shy on the surface, but she’s a bit (if not, a lot) of a freak based on our first encounter. We’ll find out…

So it’s almost been two weeks. New Years Eve will be that milestone. I’m thinking now since I’ve been warmed up to this practice, having regular sex, and have seen a doctor I am ready to kick it up a notch.

Starting New Years Day, I’m going kick obvious porn. That’ll be my new years resolution. I want to eventually get a tingling feeling when I see a woman in bikini.

Armed with the practicing no fap, supplements/medication, and this wonderful support group I definitely see myself getting better for 2021. I want to eventually sparingly use supplements/medication, if not cease use completely.

Baby steps

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Day 14 v2:

Last night with Moana was a good time. I was able to get and stay hard with the use of medication and supplements, but one thing I noticed was I could not orgasm unless things got nasty.

I think this is a sign that I need to quit porn. Big changes for 2021.

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Happy new year mate @Not_Ricardo have a great Porn-free one

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@debellator I’m not only going to not let me down, I’m not going to let you down either

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Day 15 v2:

A new year, a new and improved me. 2021 is going to be a year where I don’t touch porn. I’m going say it again. 2021 I will NOT touch porn!

I thought of sending 2020 away with doing a forced relapse to get it out to start 2021 fresh. Nope, fortunately in this instance it is not the thought that counts.

I owe it myself. I owe it to the women in my life. I am strong. Leave that negative energy in the past!

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